A very occward (or how ever u spell it) & depressin day for bethany! U ALL BETTER READ THIS!
Ok....... first i must explain about this kid and then i'll tell u what happen. I think it is safe to say what happen because the person doesn't go on the computer and the "other ppl" who might know don't read this so i can talk about it sort of.
There is this guy that i knew since i was 5 who is my neighbor. And he was apart of "IT". He also had a crush on since i was 5 till about now but idk if he still likes me n e more. We use to be very good friends but there was always something gettin in r way that kept us from becomin more than just friends. First "IT" prevented us, than me havin other bf's prevented us, then remi hahaha yes remi prevented us (if u ask me i'll explain how remi comes into this) Then middle school prevented us because we were in different house's, we hang w/ different friends, and he started to not come outside to hang out like my other neighbors so it's like he's not even really my neighbor. So we stopped talkin completly but 5/6 grade. Yet even though we did this he still had a crush on me. He was like my stalker or something. There was neighborhood rumor's that he takes pictures of me and just starres that them or something and he did some weird thing in his yearbooks w/ my picures, but that is just a rumor. The rumor came from ppl who like to make stuff up so idt it's true but he does this like me and my dad even saw him checkin me out! HAHA and that was in church! Around 4th grade/5 grade i think he was afraid of losin me as a friend or something and i didn't have a bf at the time so he probley wanted me to be his girlfriend so one day on his bike he went down the street, put one single rose on my doorstep, rang the doorbell and rode his bike away. When the door open i got the rose and just was shocked/amazed. How did he know that my favorite flower was a rose and that i don't like a lot of them, i would just rather have one. And that was such a sweet/thoughtful thing for him to do. No1 has ever done something like that for me b4. I was just speachless though. I didn't know how to react, so i avoded him until he asked if i got the rose and i said yes thank u then went home. At my house i just sat there thinking. I'd feel bad if i don't talk to him so i was goin to try to talk to him and become better friends w/ him like we were b4 but yet again something got in the way andkid tried to get me we never spoke again until today.
All this guy has done since then was starr at me, and think about me. One day ashley over heard him in french talkin to this one kid about me ad y he liked me/knew me and stuff. He was talkin about me and "IT". Well umm part of "IT", I don't know hopw he can remember "IT" but some how he does a lil bit. After he told that kid about me that kid as been tryin to make me and him go out w/ each otherbut at that time I was goin out w/ jake so i couldn't go out w/ the kid and besides i wouldn't anyways because we havn't spoke in years so i would have to get to know him well again and be friends w/ him again first. So then after the and "him" to go out w/ each other, i gave him my # but he never called me. The kid stopped tryin to make us go out together, anopther year pasted and we still havn't spoken but like I said we haven spoken until today.
Today it was raining out. I like the rain so i was starrin out the window and out of nowhere "he" comes and sits w/ me more of forces me into the seat so he can sit down next to me. I was very shocked and speachless. Then he actually started talking to me, but I couldn't understand him well because he must have been pretty shy to have just done this. I'm surprised he did. I thoght he said we have school, today sucks so i said yea it sucks for me too. But what he really said today sucks. Then he told me, "no i mean today sucks for MY family." I asked him y. Then he imformed me that his uncle just died. Then there was a period of silence.
(when he was 3 his dad died and it was just his mom, his brother and his grandparents. His grandparents kind of took the place as a fatherly figure for him. Then his gandparents died and for many years his uncle took the place as his father sort of and was there for him for many years, so now that his uncle just died who is left? Only his mom and his younger brother)
I finally spoke and said i was very srry, he just said in a bitterly way, yea. Anther period of silence. I looked out the window thinking of when me and him were friends. There was this one time (when we were BOTH apart of "IT") that he was very depressed and we both talked for hours and i cheered him up a lot. That was a very good time for us. We talked, we joked, we laughed, I cheered him up and he was really happy. happy to be my friend, happy to talk to me, happy i was there for him. When he told me this I think he was expecting the same thing to happen i wanted it to happen to but i couldn't. We havn't spoke in years, both to shy too or things prevented us from doin that both the fact is we havn't spoken to each other. He can't just come up, tell me that and expect things to be how they use to be. I felt really sad. I took out gum and gave a pice to him. Then another long period of science think of what I should do. Then i asked when it happen. he said last nite. I said oh my oh so very srry. he said yea well i'm use to it. All these things, memories rushed through my mind, of him, me "IT" and other things. I asked him if he was ok. He said that he will be fiune. Again i said how srry i was and that i hope he feels better. he said i'm use to it, it happen to my dad, my grandparents and now my uncle. he looked like he was about to cry, then he said so i'm use to it. I just said oh but i'm still srry. He said yea. Oh i didn't know what to say, there was so much to say but yet i was speachless. i just starred out the window thinking of what i could say, what i wanted to say, how we stopped talkin, "IT", how we were friends and many other things. by then the bus was pulling into the school, so i wanted to try to talk to him again. i asked when his lunch was. He said 5th. I told him mine was in 4th but i wanted 5th but i couldn't switch. he gave me a depressed fake smile and said oh well. then left off the bus to school and only looked back once at me.
the whole rest of the day i was thinking about this.
There is this guy that i knew since i was 5 who is my neighbor. And he was apart of "IT". He also had a crush on since i was 5 till about now but idk if he still likes me n e more. We use to be very good friends but there was always something gettin in r way that kept us from becomin more than just friends. First "IT" prevented us, than me havin other bf's prevented us, then remi hahaha yes remi prevented us (if u ask me i'll explain how remi comes into this) Then middle school prevented us because we were in different house's, we hang w/ different friends, and he started to not come outside to hang out like my other neighbors so it's like he's not even really my neighbor. So we stopped talkin completly but 5/6 grade. Yet even though we did this he still had a crush on me. He was like my stalker or something. There was neighborhood rumor's that he takes pictures of me and just starres that them or something and he did some weird thing in his yearbooks w/ my picures, but that is just a rumor. The rumor came from ppl who like to make stuff up so idt it's true but he does this like me and my dad even saw him checkin me out! HAHA and that was in church! Around 4th grade/5 grade i think he was afraid of losin me as a friend or something and i didn't have a bf at the time so he probley wanted me to be his girlfriend so one day on his bike he went down the street, put one single rose on my doorstep, rang the doorbell and rode his bike away. When the door open i got the rose and just was shocked/amazed. How did he know that my favorite flower was a rose and that i don't like a lot of them, i would just rather have one. And that was such a sweet/thoughtful thing for him to do. No1 has ever done something like that for me b4. I was just speachless though. I didn't know how to react, so i avoded him until he asked if i got the rose and i said yes thank u then went home. At my house i just sat there thinking. I'd feel bad if i don't talk to him so i was goin to try to talk to him and become better friends w/ him like we were b4 but yet again something got in the way andkid tried to get me we never spoke again until today.
All this guy has done since then was starr at me, and think about me. One day ashley over heard him in french talkin to this one kid about me ad y he liked me/knew me and stuff. He was talkin about me and "IT". Well umm part of "IT", I don't know hopw he can remember "IT" but some how he does a lil bit. After he told that kid about me that kid as been tryin to make me and him go out w/ each otherbut at that time I was goin out w/ jake so i couldn't go out w/ the kid and besides i wouldn't anyways because we havn't spoke in years so i would have to get to know him well again and be friends w/ him again first. So then after the and "him" to go out w/ each other, i gave him my # but he never called me. The kid stopped tryin to make us go out together, anopther year pasted and we still havn't spoken but like I said we haven spoken until today.
Today it was raining out. I like the rain so i was starrin out the window and out of nowhere "he" comes and sits w/ me more of forces me into the seat so he can sit down next to me. I was very shocked and speachless. Then he actually started talking to me, but I couldn't understand him well because he must have been pretty shy to have just done this. I'm surprised he did. I thoght he said we have school, today sucks so i said yea it sucks for me too. But what he really said today sucks. Then he told me, "no i mean today sucks for MY family." I asked him y. Then he imformed me that his uncle just died. Then there was a period of silence.
(when he was 3 his dad died and it was just his mom, his brother and his grandparents. His grandparents kind of took the place as a fatherly figure for him. Then his gandparents died and for many years his uncle took the place as his father sort of and was there for him for many years, so now that his uncle just died who is left? Only his mom and his younger brother)
I finally spoke and said i was very srry, he just said in a bitterly way, yea. Anther period of silence. I looked out the window thinking of when me and him were friends. There was this one time (when we were BOTH apart of "IT") that he was very depressed and we both talked for hours and i cheered him up a lot. That was a very good time for us. We talked, we joked, we laughed, I cheered him up and he was really happy. happy to be my friend, happy to talk to me, happy i was there for him. When he told me this I think he was expecting the same thing to happen i wanted it to happen to but i couldn't. We havn't spoke in years, both to shy too or things prevented us from doin that both the fact is we havn't spoken to each other. He can't just come up, tell me that and expect things to be how they use to be. I felt really sad. I took out gum and gave a pice to him. Then another long period of science think of what I should do. Then i asked when it happen. he said last nite. I said oh my oh so very srry. he said yea well i'm use to it. All these things, memories rushed through my mind, of him, me "IT" and other things. I asked him if he was ok. He said that he will be fiune. Again i said how srry i was and that i hope he feels better. he said i'm use to it, it happen to my dad, my grandparents and now my uncle. he looked like he was about to cry, then he said so i'm use to it. I just said oh but i'm still srry. He said yea. Oh i didn't know what to say, there was so much to say but yet i was speachless. i just starred out the window thinking of what i could say, what i wanted to say, how we stopped talkin, "IT", how we were friends and many other things. by then the bus was pulling into the school, so i wanted to try to talk to him again. i asked when his lunch was. He said 5th. I told him mine was in 4th but i wanted 5th but i couldn't switch. he gave me a depressed fake smile and said oh well. then left off the bus to school and only looked back once at me.
the whole rest of the day i was thinking about this.