Blegh...
My RP seems to have gone by the wayside again...
This always happens when I DM; I get too ambitious then wear myself out trying to meet the standards I make for myself, and then I can't do it any more...
I really wish I could find a group where I could be a player rather than the DM for a change; maybe I can either learn something, or at the very least have fun while not feeling like I have to impress someone...
While I'm on the subject, I also really want to be able to actually get out there one or two nights a week for an activity or a club; something where I'm actively socializing and meeting people.
It's just... I can count on one hand the number of good friends I've had, and the vast majority of people I thought were friends I only knew for the past couple of years before they drifted away or just stopped talking to me... I spend far too much of my life in front of this thing, and a big part of it is because I have nothing to do and no one to do things with.
Of course, it doesn't help that i've almost certainly got SAD, and the gloomy weather's been making the symptoms worse >.>
This always happens when I DM; I get too ambitious then wear myself out trying to meet the standards I make for myself, and then I can't do it any more...
I really wish I could find a group where I could be a player rather than the DM for a change; maybe I can either learn something, or at the very least have fun while not feeling like I have to impress someone...
While I'm on the subject, I also really want to be able to actually get out there one or two nights a week for an activity or a club; something where I'm actively socializing and meeting people.
It's just... I can count on one hand the number of good friends I've had, and the vast majority of people I thought were friends I only knew for the past couple of years before they drifted away or just stopped talking to me... I spend far too much of my life in front of this thing, and a big part of it is because I have nothing to do and no one to do things with.
Of course, it doesn't help that i've almost certainly got SAD, and the gloomy weather's been making the symptoms worse >.>