I'm kinda confused
You know something. I'm confused about my life right now.
I love my life right now. I have a lot of friends, I'm making some good money at a job I really thoroughly enjoy, and it feels like all the bad shit I endured is starting to ease up off my back.
And yet for some reason, I still feel this startling strong urge to reclaim my anonymity online. I don't know why. I guess its because I update so little and I feel like when I do update things here and there that I could be getting myself in to trouble somewhere else. I even deleted my MySpace completely. With no announcement either. I just wanted to get rid of it. It's not like I feel someone is watching me or has the urge to watch me. *shudder* That's a scary thought. No, I mean, I guess I just wonder what would happen if someone I didn't want had the ability to find my LJ and read all my little personal nothings. At times, I post some really deep stuff on here. And sometimes, nothing at all.
I guess it doesn't really matter. I think I'm just going to start locking my journal entries. I don't think there's anyone that reads my journal anonymously...or anyone who will really even care. I guess I just want to cover my ass for something and I haven't even done anything wrong.
/confusion
Also, there's something I want to say to my friend Kris (not putting her LJ name)
Kris - You are an awesome friend and I miss you terribly. My biggest regret about leaving, was not coming to see you first. I really miss you and I still think you are made of AWESOME WIN! I just didn't really want to be seen. It felt like my sanity was falling apart at the seams and I was burying myself in video games and a job I hated to sort of block out my own thoughts. I was going through a rough time, but all in all, I should have come to see you. Because you are a real friend. I love you.
Anyways, back to your own whatevers world.
I love my life right now. I have a lot of friends, I'm making some good money at a job I really thoroughly enjoy, and it feels like all the bad shit I endured is starting to ease up off my back.
And yet for some reason, I still feel this startling strong urge to reclaim my anonymity online. I don't know why. I guess its because I update so little and I feel like when I do update things here and there that I could be getting myself in to trouble somewhere else. I even deleted my MySpace completely. With no announcement either. I just wanted to get rid of it. It's not like I feel someone is watching me or has the urge to watch me. *shudder* That's a scary thought. No, I mean, I guess I just wonder what would happen if someone I didn't want had the ability to find my LJ and read all my little personal nothings. At times, I post some really deep stuff on here. And sometimes, nothing at all.
I guess it doesn't really matter. I think I'm just going to start locking my journal entries. I don't think there's anyone that reads my journal anonymously...or anyone who will really even care. I guess I just want to cover my ass for something and I haven't even done anything wrong.
/confusion
Also, there's something I want to say to my friend Kris (not putting her LJ name)
Kris - You are an awesome friend and I miss you terribly. My biggest regret about leaving, was not coming to see you first. I really miss you and I still think you are made of AWESOME WIN! I just didn't really want to be seen. It felt like my sanity was falling apart at the seams and I was burying myself in video games and a job I hated to sort of block out my own thoughts. I was going through a rough time, but all in all, I should have come to see you. Because you are a real friend. I love you.
Anyways, back to your own whatevers world.