I wonder....
I took yet another day off from classes: yeehaw! Homework and chores here I come... and I was super sore from work Sat. and then dancing to a drum circle in heels later with Indigo at her friend John's (really neat though I'm really glad I went! And Mads was there who I haven't seen in forever! Fellow lover of Chocolate and Johnny Depp extreme :D ).
It's Jules's Birthday! I can't wait to see her later, as she'll look very cute in the....I got her and we can LEGALLY go dancing now, 'bout time!
In other news, Shawn and I talked today. This weekend was really rocky for us and we broke up without verifying that we were broken up. I didn't know how to feel (and he cued me in he shared this sentiment) except that we were both relieved we weren't stressing each other out or fighting anymore. Because I didn't go to class today, he came over before work to have tea and talk. It was the most mature conversation we've had since before we were dating, and refreshing (even if it was bittersweet). He said what irked him about me and I said what irked me about him, but we still let each other know why we cared about each other (creativity, mind, values, looks). He had told me I wasn't a "good" friend when he was drunk Friday, and that I didn't mesh with his family and he needed a girl who could. I had made myself distant for quite a while and had been annoying Shawn in general because of outside stress and the fact that I don't really want, or ever have wanted, to be in a real relationshippy kinda relationship (and I have absolutely no time working 30 hours with school now). We both didn't want to compromise anymore. I will be really sad if/when we grow apart. Like hell I want to start over again and respect distance, but I'll take my big girl pill if I have to. I'll probably have some good cries about this eventually... I just don't want to accept the hit full right now. He's been the closest to what I admire and respect in terms of an old soul that I've ever dated, though he said he protected me from a lot of things he does he thought would offend me. I kinda am a prude, I know that (thanks daddy!). In class it'll probably hit me though and I hope I can keep composure. : /
We left on a more hopeful and supportive note than I ever expected possible. Relief will give way to understanding, and I'm glad we know each other.
If that wasn't Hallmark enough, I don't know what is. It wouldn't look right in one of their series though, because we're both so much weirder than the standard allowed on Hallmark. It would make for a pretty sweet indie flick though, amusing AND interesting ;).
It's Jules's Birthday! I can't wait to see her later, as she'll look very cute in the....I got her and we can LEGALLY go dancing now, 'bout time!
In other news, Shawn and I talked today. This weekend was really rocky for us and we broke up without verifying that we were broken up. I didn't know how to feel (and he cued me in he shared this sentiment) except that we were both relieved we weren't stressing each other out or fighting anymore. Because I didn't go to class today, he came over before work to have tea and talk. It was the most mature conversation we've had since before we were dating, and refreshing (even if it was bittersweet). He said what irked him about me and I said what irked me about him, but we still let each other know why we cared about each other (creativity, mind, values, looks). He had told me I wasn't a "good" friend when he was drunk Friday, and that I didn't mesh with his family and he needed a girl who could. I had made myself distant for quite a while and had been annoying Shawn in general because of outside stress and the fact that I don't really want, or ever have wanted, to be in a real relationshippy kinda relationship (and I have absolutely no time working 30 hours with school now). We both didn't want to compromise anymore. I will be really sad if/when we grow apart. Like hell I want to start over again and respect distance, but I'll take my big girl pill if I have to. I'll probably have some good cries about this eventually... I just don't want to accept the hit full right now. He's been the closest to what I admire and respect in terms of an old soul that I've ever dated, though he said he protected me from a lot of things he does he thought would offend me. I kinda am a prude, I know that (thanks daddy!). In class it'll probably hit me though and I hope I can keep composure. : /
We left on a more hopeful and supportive note than I ever expected possible. Relief will give way to understanding, and I'm glad we know each other.
If that wasn't Hallmark enough, I don't know what is. It wouldn't look right in one of their series though, because we're both so much weirder than the standard allowed on Hallmark. It would make for a pretty sweet indie flick though, amusing AND interesting ;).