Looking for a Happy Ending - Part 4B
Title: Looking for a Happy Ending
Author: firefly_caPairing,Character(s): Kurt/Blaine, with eventual appearances from pretty much everyone ( Read more... )
Author: firefly_caPairing,Character(s): Kurt/Blaine, with eventual appearances from pretty much everyone ( Read more... )
I cannot get over the fact that SOMEONE KNOWS, OMG, and that I don't even have any idea where this story is going to go. I'm so excited to read more and find out, because MY GOD this chapter. The kiss with Rachel, the complete breakdown that I think you wrote incredibly well, the fact that they called Kurt, and the conversation in the car? So, so perfect. Oh, you just hit so many emotional notes, and my heart just broke for Blaine a million times over.
Also, oh god, the feelings of self-hatred and disgust -- that Blaine feels that what's happened to him has somehow made him gay -- just completely annihilated me. The issues surrounding sexuality, masculinity, and sexual assault for men are so incredibly dense and varied, and you hit on so many things here that just shattered my heart. Blaine's guilt, my god. He's so, so fucked up in this verse. Just... completely destroyed, and shattered, and all muddled up in his head. When he was having the conversation in the car with Kurt, the degree of drunken confusion almost made the scene more clear to me. Because Blaine deludes himself a lot, but everything is so muddled and confused and twisted in his head that when he was talking to Kurt it almost seemed more coherent to me. (If that makes any sense at all, ohgod so tired.)
I also loved the fact that the ND was so protective of Kurt, all of them. I really liked that. Because there would be NOTHING to indicate to Kurt what had happened to make Blaine upset, nothing at all, and it was nice seeing them rally around him. (Those dreams were so, so lovely though. The bed outside, the comfort with one another, the sureness. What a terrible thing to rip away from Blaine when he wakes.)
Moment that hit me hardest: Blaine sitting in the foodcourt, looking at his cell phone, knowing he should go home but not able to do it. Just... wow, yeah. Guh.
I'm so scared of what's going to happen with Tom because Blaine never came home, and I'm stoked to see what happens with Burt, and I CANNOT GET OVER THE FACT THAT PEOPLE KNOW NOW OMG. Thank you so much for another amazing chapter!
P.S. I seriously cannot figure out why more people aren't reading this. O.o Reccing it over on my tumblr now.
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I'm really glad you liked this part. Truth be told, it's been my favourite to write so far. Every time I wrote something too depressing I went back to the party scene and the car scene (and one scene a little later on, but I can't tell you about it because it's not posted :p) and wrote up a storm. For the longest time I couldn't figure out why I kept coming back to them but the I realized that they're all Hugging Scenes. So whenever I did something terrible to this poor Blaine I'd compensate by writing something where he gets the crap hugged out of him XD
I hope to give you the last of the Epic Hug Scenes not too long from now - parts of the final update are going faster than I thought they would, but I'm taking a little more time with it. A lot will be happening and I don't want to miss anything important. It will probably be up by mid-next week!
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