Jul 23, 2006 19:21
My coping mechanism for when things get really hard isn't a good one.
I burn bridges. Metaphorically speaking, of course.
When I get really depressed, and seem to have no real reason why, I make a situation bad for myself so I can have a "legitimate" reason to feel like crap. I end friendships, I start fights, I fuck up in general. There have been times when part of me wished something really bad would happen in my life, just so I could be depressed and not feel guilty about it. I think that makes me a bad person. I know it certainly makes me human.
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I'm also really good at pin-pointing my problems and never fixing them. Even when the solution is simple. I really don't like myself right now.