I've realized...
...that I have an issue with being alone. Something in me just can't handle being completely alone right now, and that scares me.
...that I need people to like me. I didn't realize that until I just let it flow from my fingers without thinking first.
...that I bounce from group to group of friends. I never stay more than a few months with any group, it seems. There are only two friends (not including family) that I've truly kept up with for extended periods of time.
...that I need to change some stuff in my life, despite being scared of it.
...that I hate feeling like I can't open up in a group of friends. I don't do well when I feel that I can't express my emotions openly.
...that some people I used to admire/love/respect/insert nice thing here are people I don't want to deal with anymore. I was just blind to it before.
...that I'm easily persuaded. I don't think for myself nearly enough.
...that I hate not being honest. And I hate having to censor myself.
I realize that my life is organized chaos (an oxymoron, I know) and that I don't know how much longer I can deal with it this way...
...that I need people to like me. I didn't realize that until I just let it flow from my fingers without thinking first.
...that I bounce from group to group of friends. I never stay more than a few months with any group, it seems. There are only two friends (not including family) that I've truly kept up with for extended periods of time.
...that I need to change some stuff in my life, despite being scared of it.
...that I hate feeling like I can't open up in a group of friends. I don't do well when I feel that I can't express my emotions openly.
...that some people I used to admire/love/respect/insert nice thing here are people I don't want to deal with anymore. I was just blind to it before.
...that I'm easily persuaded. I don't think for myself nearly enough.
...that I hate not being honest. And I hate having to censor myself.
I realize that my life is organized chaos (an oxymoron, I know) and that I don't know how much longer I can deal with it this way...