Everyone is entitled to a certain number of emo journal entries
and I'm taking one of mine. So feel free to skip this if you are like me and get irritated when people post entries full of winning and personal problems. Hypocritical? Perhaps. But somehow venting my problems to a greater "someone" makes me feel better, even if there isn't anyone actually receiving it.
I just hate college.
Everyone keeps asking me if I've found my niche yet and the answer is no. No I have not found my niche because I haven't made any new friends, I have for all practical purposes lost contact with my old friends and I am beginning to wonder if there even exists a nitch that would include me.
I go to church; everyone is gone.
I go to a new church; everyone who already knows each other has no interest in talking to me, and the new people (including me) are boring because we have no common experiences to talk about.
I go to theatre; nobody else in my practicum class knows how to sew. Why would you sign up to make costumes if you can't even thread a needle? Anyways, the point being that my fruitless search for a new theatre community to become part of is at a standstill.
In conclusion, I feel empty and anxious and lonely all at the same time. I wish I could just exist by myself but that isn't possible.
I just hate college.
Everyone keeps asking me if I've found my niche yet and the answer is no. No I have not found my niche because I haven't made any new friends, I have for all practical purposes lost contact with my old friends and I am beginning to wonder if there even exists a nitch that would include me.
I go to church; everyone is gone.
I go to a new church; everyone who already knows each other has no interest in talking to me, and the new people (including me) are boring because we have no common experiences to talk about.
I go to theatre; nobody else in my practicum class knows how to sew. Why would you sign up to make costumes if you can't even thread a needle? Anyways, the point being that my fruitless search for a new theatre community to become part of is at a standstill.
In conclusion, I feel empty and anxious and lonely all at the same time. I wish I could just exist by myself but that isn't possible.