I need a vacation
I feel like shit.
I really need a break from everything.
Unfortunately, that won't happen any time soon.
I've done too much thinking.
I can't shut my mind off.
I wish I could just get a day when I did not have anything to worry about. No assignments due, no work to be done. Just one day.
Funny thing is...I wish that I could get the things I've been wanting, wishing for...for a while.
Eh...a girl can dream.
Not like they'll ever come true.
It's like I don't even know what I want to do anymore. I don't even know what I want to do with my life at this point.
Quantitative psychology is really interesting and really gets me going. I love the stuff.
Then there are times like yesterday at work when I was holding a patient's hand because her years of smoking had caught up with her, she could not breathe and told me that she was scared...so I sat there and held her hand to help calm her down and make her comfortable.
It's things like that that make me question if I'm really doing what I'm supposed to be doing. It's the days where I'm on top of my game and I'm getting things done. I'm helping out the patients and learning new skills at work.
Am I on the right track? Who the hell knows.
I'm considering giving up thinking seriously about the future and taking each day as it comes. I can't really expect anything from anyone(...except two people in my life, really). Maybe I'm destined to continue working as a tech. Maybe I'm supposed to go to PA school or something. Or, maybe I'm supposed to go through a grad psych program like I've been planning for the past three years.
I'm tired. In general. Of things in life. Of not knowing anything. I'm working at least 36 hours a week and taking 15 credits.
I'm tired.
I'm going to bed...precalc at 8:45, then work 11-11 (hopefully I'll get off on time).
I really need a break from everything.
Unfortunately, that won't happen any time soon.
I've done too much thinking.
I can't shut my mind off.
I wish I could just get a day when I did not have anything to worry about. No assignments due, no work to be done. Just one day.
Funny thing is...I wish that I could get the things I've been wanting, wishing for...for a while.
Eh...a girl can dream.
Not like they'll ever come true.
It's like I don't even know what I want to do anymore. I don't even know what I want to do with my life at this point.
Quantitative psychology is really interesting and really gets me going. I love the stuff.
Then there are times like yesterday at work when I was holding a patient's hand because her years of smoking had caught up with her, she could not breathe and told me that she was scared...so I sat there and held her hand to help calm her down and make her comfortable.
It's things like that that make me question if I'm really doing what I'm supposed to be doing. It's the days where I'm on top of my game and I'm getting things done. I'm helping out the patients and learning new skills at work.
Am I on the right track? Who the hell knows.
I'm considering giving up thinking seriously about the future and taking each day as it comes. I can't really expect anything from anyone(...except two people in my life, really). Maybe I'm destined to continue working as a tech. Maybe I'm supposed to go to PA school or something. Or, maybe I'm supposed to go through a grad psych program like I've been planning for the past three years.
I'm tired. In general. Of things in life. Of not knowing anything. I'm working at least 36 hours a week and taking 15 credits.
I'm tired.
I'm going to bed...precalc at 8:45, then work 11-11 (hopefully I'll get off on time).