The Day
I feel a lot better...I was having some issues in my head that needed resolving..about Italy and certain members of the opposite sex, so today I took a day off and sat myself in a coffee shop and just wrote...I spent 3 hours there and when I got back I had 9 pages of freewriting and thoughts that felt so good to get out.
It was definitly needed...A lot of the time I feel like there's no one here that I can really talk to deeply...Yeah, Liz and Goots are my best friends here but we're not AS close as me and Kerrin are...and she hasn't been around lately. I think she's probably one of the only people I real feel like I can talk to without having her judge me..and she always gives advice not based on what she thinks I want to hear but rather what she thinks looks like the best solution. I kinda wish I had more people like her but since I don't, I'll stop bitching.
So, I'm not going to lie, I'm terrified about Italy. I'm not close with anyone going and I'm afraid that I'm going to be ridiculously lonely...I'm seriously nervous about the whole thing. I'm trying to convince myself that I didn't jump into this and that it will be ok..but I can't. Even looking back at entries here, maybe I should've thought about this a little more. I've never been homesick or anything, so that's not what I'm worried about..I guess I'm just worried that I'll be by myself a lot...hopefully it will be ok. hm. we'll see.
More later..
It was definitly needed...A lot of the time I feel like there's no one here that I can really talk to deeply...Yeah, Liz and Goots are my best friends here but we're not AS close as me and Kerrin are...and she hasn't been around lately. I think she's probably one of the only people I real feel like I can talk to without having her judge me..and she always gives advice not based on what she thinks I want to hear but rather what she thinks looks like the best solution. I kinda wish I had more people like her but since I don't, I'll stop bitching.
So, I'm not going to lie, I'm terrified about Italy. I'm not close with anyone going and I'm afraid that I'm going to be ridiculously lonely...I'm seriously nervous about the whole thing. I'm trying to convince myself that I didn't jump into this and that it will be ok..but I can't. Even looking back at entries here, maybe I should've thought about this a little more. I've never been homesick or anything, so that's not what I'm worried about..I guess I'm just worried that I'll be by myself a lot...hopefully it will be ok. hm. we'll see.
More later..