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ya know.. as i sit here day after day alone and bored, im consantly reminded of how lonely i really am. I dont need a girlfriend.. I want one though. I wish i had one.. I see how happy couples are. and it saddens me.. i need someone i can call at 12:00 am in the mornin to complain about life to.
Grr.. I guess i do so much complaining..
U know what sucks.. I usually shy away from relationships.. i hate rejection. It hurts to much..
But I fell for someone.. We got really close.. On valentines day, I took her chocolates and a handmade card.. Just to tell her how much i cared.. and her card was special. The words alone "here's to our friendship, for years to come". I put effort into letting her know that i cared.. S
She told me to call her that night.
She didnt answer, and i havent talked to her since that day.. I tried day after day calling her. Up to last week i did.. thats all..
2 hours later
In other news. I just got back from a call. Caller reported that a tranformer that had blown. We went, we saw nothing, we returned. I GOT TO TALK ON THE RADIO! YAY! sorry.. kid moment..
On my ride home, there was a disabled vehicle in to the woods, i got out. checked if the lady was ok, called central, reported it, waited about five minutes for cops, then got out with another moterist and pushed the person out..
Central pissed me off. Instead of one person takin my call, they threw me around, kept makin me hold. I tried to be nice, and tell them all was clear, and there was this one bitch that fucked it all up. Oh well.. Now i'm home.
Grr.. I guess i do so much complaining..
U know what sucks.. I usually shy away from relationships.. i hate rejection. It hurts to much..
But I fell for someone.. We got really close.. On valentines day, I took her chocolates and a handmade card.. Just to tell her how much i cared.. and her card was special. The words alone "here's to our friendship, for years to come". I put effort into letting her know that i cared.. S
She told me to call her that night.
She didnt answer, and i havent talked to her since that day.. I tried day after day calling her. Up to last week i did.. thats all..
2 hours later
In other news. I just got back from a call. Caller reported that a tranformer that had blown. We went, we saw nothing, we returned. I GOT TO TALK ON THE RADIO! YAY! sorry.. kid moment..
On my ride home, there was a disabled vehicle in to the woods, i got out. checked if the lady was ok, called central, reported it, waited about five minutes for cops, then got out with another moterist and pushed the person out..
Central pissed me off. Instead of one person takin my call, they threw me around, kept makin me hold. I tried to be nice, and tell them all was clear, and there was this one bitch that fucked it all up. Oh well.. Now i'm home.