Tell me your opinion ..i need it desperately.
Ok so here is the story. Stick with me and I'll see if i can explain it enough to understand.
So there is this guy (i know i know)
We went to fire academy together and supposedly hes been "searching " for me for 2.5 years now since we graduated, because in his mind i was "the one that got away". There are two reasons I never thought anything of us back then. Big ones i might add. #1 I was 18 and in highschool and he was 24.
#2 he had a girlfriend of 4 years. and well...that is not something to mess with.
But long story kinda short, he turns up out of nowhere and I decide to go see him at his firehouse.
We hang out all night and talk, he kisses me after we decide that there is definitely SOMETHING there...and then i leave and go home.
The next night I go to his house and we hang out the entire night, talking and stuff/...he is amazing. Takes my breath away , awesome. Hes 27 and im 21. Not so bad right?
Ok well here is the problem.
About 10 months ago he started seeing this girl and they just more recently within the past four months got serious. Well last month (January)...he broke up wtih her, but still sees her, because well, shes a mother of THREE BOYS!!!!!...
He feels obligated to not break her heart, to keep things nice between them because, well they are friends too and he loves the kids. Hes just not willing to be a father of three...
So i dont know, I would never admit that i think constantly about losing him to this woman, or that maybe he will see something in me that just totally turns him off to the idea of ever being with me, but for now we are just seeing each other...its not like he has COMMITTED to me yet, and neither have i to him.
Dont get me wrong, im seeing ONLY him, because well, i just dont think id be comfortable being with anyone else while i was with him.
He constantly tells me im beautiful, that im too good for him, that im perfect in every way...which i find very very very hard to believe. Yes I have some factors of the ideal woman ...im smart, funny, im not TOO bad to look at, im very independant, yet i need someone to be there (ya know?)...i work hard for everything i have, im a hell of a cook, im great at A LOT of things i do (if you knwo what i mean)...and well
im not jealous.
Im just worried....
that i might put too much into this and get nothing out of it. Im worried that he will go back to her, even though he says hes not. He asks for patience, and i am more than willing to give that to him, because right now all i have is time. I work two jobs and go to school...time is definitely on my side.
so
what do you think
its a crazy situation i know.
i am surprised i havent ran from it yet.....but im not quitter...you all know that.
i just wish i knew what to think.
So there is this guy (i know i know)
We went to fire academy together and supposedly hes been "searching " for me for 2.5 years now since we graduated, because in his mind i was "the one that got away". There are two reasons I never thought anything of us back then. Big ones i might add. #1 I was 18 and in highschool and he was 24.
#2 he had a girlfriend of 4 years. and well...that is not something to mess with.
But long story kinda short, he turns up out of nowhere and I decide to go see him at his firehouse.
We hang out all night and talk, he kisses me after we decide that there is definitely SOMETHING there...and then i leave and go home.
The next night I go to his house and we hang out the entire night, talking and stuff/...he is amazing. Takes my breath away , awesome. Hes 27 and im 21. Not so bad right?
Ok well here is the problem.
About 10 months ago he started seeing this girl and they just more recently within the past four months got serious. Well last month (January)...he broke up wtih her, but still sees her, because well, shes a mother of THREE BOYS!!!!!...
He feels obligated to not break her heart, to keep things nice between them because, well they are friends too and he loves the kids. Hes just not willing to be a father of three...
So i dont know, I would never admit that i think constantly about losing him to this woman, or that maybe he will see something in me that just totally turns him off to the idea of ever being with me, but for now we are just seeing each other...its not like he has COMMITTED to me yet, and neither have i to him.
Dont get me wrong, im seeing ONLY him, because well, i just dont think id be comfortable being with anyone else while i was with him.
He constantly tells me im beautiful, that im too good for him, that im perfect in every way...which i find very very very hard to believe. Yes I have some factors of the ideal woman ...im smart, funny, im not TOO bad to look at, im very independant, yet i need someone to be there (ya know?)...i work hard for everything i have, im a hell of a cook, im great at A LOT of things i do (if you knwo what i mean)...and well
im not jealous.
Im just worried....
that i might put too much into this and get nothing out of it. Im worried that he will go back to her, even though he says hes not. He asks for patience, and i am more than willing to give that to him, because right now all i have is time. I work two jobs and go to school...time is definitely on my side.
so
what do you think
its a crazy situation i know.
i am surprised i havent ran from it yet.....but im not quitter...you all know that.
i just wish i knew what to think.