And so it is just like you said it would be...
I'm really hacked right now. My loan probably won't be through in time for school to start, which poses a problem for purchasing books. Fuck this all anyway. I think next year, I'm going to try and transfer to Youngstown. I really think that I should have more seriously considered the dorm option before. I wish that I would have now, because I REALLY want out of my house.
I'm at Jay's house again, and he's all stressed out about his loan. I don't know what the hell to do. I just want to crawl in a hole right now. And to make it better, I feel like I'm losing one of my best friends. I feel stuck, like I can't go anywhere with my friends anymore. I feel like I should never leave the freaking house at all. I'm in a really shitty mood right now. I think I need to just... I don't know.
I want the fuck out of here. This town, this place... this whole mother fucking life. I want away from 98% of the people I know. I want to stop looking at the same houses, trees, and roads every day. I'm so sick of my house, my family, especially George. I'm so sick of all of this shit. I just want away. I want to go to Youngstown or something and live in a dorm and meet people and just be somewhere else. I hate this.
And now I realized that I have to drive all the fucking way home and get my immunization records because I fucking forgot them. Ok, well now I don't, because I forgot that I stuck them in the folder with my Penn State shit and stuck it in my computer bag. So that's one thing that's going my way tonight. There's a get-together at Kev's tonight, and I don't think I can go... because George's house "isn't a frat house or a hotel". Oh well. Jenn's leaving for Philly tomorrow. I care, but at the same time, I don't. Mostly I'm jealous because some of my friends get to go away and do spectacular things in new places. I don't.
I think I'm just feeling sorry for myself today. Everyone's entitled to do that a little bit, right? Oh well, disregard it anyway.
I'm at Jay's house again, and he's all stressed out about his loan. I don't know what the hell to do. I just want to crawl in a hole right now. And to make it better, I feel like I'm losing one of my best friends. I feel stuck, like I can't go anywhere with my friends anymore. I feel like I should never leave the freaking house at all. I'm in a really shitty mood right now. I think I need to just... I don't know.
I want the fuck out of here. This town, this place... this whole mother fucking life. I want away from 98% of the people I know. I want to stop looking at the same houses, trees, and roads every day. I'm so sick of my house, my family, especially George. I'm so sick of all of this shit. I just want away. I want to go to Youngstown or something and live in a dorm and meet people and just be somewhere else. I hate this.
And now I realized that I have to drive all the fucking way home and get my immunization records because I fucking forgot them. Ok, well now I don't, because I forgot that I stuck them in the folder with my Penn State shit and stuck it in my computer bag. So that's one thing that's going my way tonight. There's a get-together at Kev's tonight, and I don't think I can go... because George's house "isn't a frat house or a hotel". Oh well. Jenn's leaving for Philly tomorrow. I care, but at the same time, I don't. Mostly I'm jealous because some of my friends get to go away and do spectacular things in new places. I don't.
I think I'm just feeling sorry for myself today. Everyone's entitled to do that a little bit, right? Oh well, disregard it anyway.