It's so much easier to run...
Today is an ugly, ugly day. Not only is it rainy and gross, it's just been an awful day so far. I'm at Jay's mom's right now, but I'm going home shortly. I feel the need to be alone for awhile. The only good thing about today is that I got the date extended on my bill for school, so that's good anyway. I'm fighting with Jay and he went to Tim's to help him work on a car. I fucking hate this.
He says he can't take it when I get depressed... well you know what? I CAN'T HELP IT. I'm sorry that I can't put my loans through until George's mortgage goes through. I'm sorry that I'm totally broke because I didn't get a pay at GE this week. I'm sorry that he feels that way about me being depressed, but it happens. I wish I could just stay away from everyone when I am, but it doesn't always happen that way.
Furthermore, I'm stuck in the middle of two big dramas yet again. First, there's the fact that Jerri is ignoring Ashley's calls, which screws things up for the movie. Then of course, there's the "Anna likes Rodney but Rodney doesnt like Anna" drama. For some reason unknown to me, they both decided to confide in me about it. It doesn't bother me too much that they both have, it's just difficult because I haven't told Anna that Rodney knows and doesn't like her yet. I don't want to screw anything up, but he has said that he wouldn't date her anyway. I'm attempting to get them both to stay away from each other, so we'll see how that goes. I'm not even really comfortable being in the middle of things. In fact, I outright hate it.
So I guess I'm going to go home before I breakdown and end up telling Derrick all my problems and crying... something that I REALLY don't want to do right now. I'm going to go home and write something... don't know what yet, but it's just that sort of a day.
He says he can't take it when I get depressed... well you know what? I CAN'T HELP IT. I'm sorry that I can't put my loans through until George's mortgage goes through. I'm sorry that I'm totally broke because I didn't get a pay at GE this week. I'm sorry that he feels that way about me being depressed, but it happens. I wish I could just stay away from everyone when I am, but it doesn't always happen that way.
Furthermore, I'm stuck in the middle of two big dramas yet again. First, there's the fact that Jerri is ignoring Ashley's calls, which screws things up for the movie. Then of course, there's the "Anna likes Rodney but Rodney doesnt like Anna" drama. For some reason unknown to me, they both decided to confide in me about it. It doesn't bother me too much that they both have, it's just difficult because I haven't told Anna that Rodney knows and doesn't like her yet. I don't want to screw anything up, but he has said that he wouldn't date her anyway. I'm attempting to get them both to stay away from each other, so we'll see how that goes. I'm not even really comfortable being in the middle of things. In fact, I outright hate it.
So I guess I'm going to go home before I breakdown and end up telling Derrick all my problems and crying... something that I REALLY don't want to do right now. I'm going to go home and write something... don't know what yet, but it's just that sort of a day.