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was thinking today... its funny how sometimes the past can be so close, yet so far away.. so many regrets.. wishes, desires.. yet its something that happened and is permently etched into our minds.. is that a blessing or a curse?
thinking about those people who cannot store new memories.. they have lost a part of who they are.. so perhaps its a blessing that we can store new memories, and remember our past.. yet it can be a curse to have gone through so much, and remember so vividly sometimes..
sometimes i curse my imagination.. it has helped me in so many ways, shaped me so much inside of myself.. its brought me my beliefs, shaped my views of myself and life.. and shown me the beauty of nature and all of her charms.. beautiful sun rises.. sun sets..
and one problem of being cautious about showing my true self in fear of people hurting me and taking advantage of me.. is that people get used to who they think i am.. and then when i show my deep side that truly apperciates nature and life.. some people would think i am on drugs.. and i have to reassure them that I am not.. and I wonder how many people out there really know me for myself..
i wonder how many people told other people things about me.. things they assume about me.. and then other people get the wrong idea.. thats why I want to meet new people on my own, allow people to get to know me. and just be myself..
guess i'll need to update alot of things.. :)
thinking about those people who cannot store new memories.. they have lost a part of who they are.. so perhaps its a blessing that we can store new memories, and remember our past.. yet it can be a curse to have gone through so much, and remember so vividly sometimes..
sometimes i curse my imagination.. it has helped me in so many ways, shaped me so much inside of myself.. its brought me my beliefs, shaped my views of myself and life.. and shown me the beauty of nature and all of her charms.. beautiful sun rises.. sun sets..
and one problem of being cautious about showing my true self in fear of people hurting me and taking advantage of me.. is that people get used to who they think i am.. and then when i show my deep side that truly apperciates nature and life.. some people would think i am on drugs.. and i have to reassure them that I am not.. and I wonder how many people out there really know me for myself..
i wonder how many people told other people things about me.. things they assume about me.. and then other people get the wrong idea.. thats why I want to meet new people on my own, allow people to get to know me. and just be myself..
guess i'll need to update alot of things.. :)