I just dont know?
Sometimes I dont know what is wrong with me. I think I may be depressed, I sleep so much. But in my defense I have been going non stop for three weeks jugling work, school, band practices, softball meetings and my overall life after all of that. I know I have a huge anger problem and my mum asked if i wanted help but to tell you the truth I dont thin ki need it. I know that should be a red flag saying hey get help, but seriously it would just be more money for my parents to waste. Maybe I will talk to my psych professor, I am positive he could help me out. I have been writing A LOT of songs. I wrote one for my Jake and Siddalee, one about my return to the music, one about someone I would rather not talk about and one about someone who no one can know about...until later I guess. Guess we will just have to wait til I come back to TN for that one. Anyway I am getting a lot of my shit onto paper, and I know I'm fine. This Halloween will definetly brighten my outlook. I am going to be a correctional facility escapee for halloween. It should be fun cuz I am wearing it at work. Its an orange jumpsuit with correctional facility on the back. makes me laugh. The kids dont know I am going to be there, they think I am working. Which is technically true but I will be there this halloween! I am doing Nellies makeup for her, she is being a punk godess...should be a lot of fun. Oh I love Halloween at home! Games, trick or treating (And yes I still do it!) and just a lot of laughs. Jen and I are going to do a couple of open mics in the coming weeks and we will record as soon as we have good material. Cross your fingers, we might do a mini tour around Tennessee and the Carolinas with Justin Jones...go check him out. Hes pretty bad ass. This Saturday I am going to see This Year Passed (Justy's band) with my sister and cousins GF Megan. Maybe Johnny will wink at me again. HOTT! I guess thats all now. Miss you Tn Babies! Love Caity Lynn