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[firecrackme]

i am sitting here on this uncomfortable chair looking at ryanmarrs website in his sweater and feeling sort of sad-ish, i havent heard from him yet and i dont know, he is in another country across a fucking ocean and i have no idea what he is up to, absolutely no semblance at all of what he is doing or where he is. fuck i miss his skin so much. and i miss sam as well. those two better be doing alright in india. i hope they are safe.

so everything today reminds me of them and that is why i have not left my house at all... fuck.