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Chris,
Can we ever see into the future? We cannot tell what will come to be. We should no longer try to. Im so sorry. Im sorry for you and Im sorry for myself. Like the song says: Ive wasted so many tears on what I thought was love. I want them back, but I simply cannot have them back. That is my retribution. For all Ive put you through Ive wasted that much time. I still think that what we had was love, but I dont know for sure. Even with that notion I simply cannot wait for you. I got to thinking about bees. Why do we run from them? their sting only hurts for a while, yet we flee from them like it is the ultimate pain. Now while we flee from these mere insects we run back to the arms of those that hurt us the most. I do not want to be one of those foolish little girls that flees from small pain just to run into a bigger one. I will NOT be one of those girls! Forgive me my dear, but what you've put me through in the past has hurt me worse than any knife to the neck ever could. And with that parting word I say my farewell. I cannot keep holding on to the notion that you could ever love me. Men like you do not love, they only need. They need to feel loved in order to complete themself. I will not be your pawn. I love you, but goodbye, for it is not you who completes me, but another...
~Amanda
Can we ever see into the future? We cannot tell what will come to be. We should no longer try to. Im so sorry. Im sorry for you and Im sorry for myself. Like the song says: Ive wasted so many tears on what I thought was love. I want them back, but I simply cannot have them back. That is my retribution. For all Ive put you through Ive wasted that much time. I still think that what we had was love, but I dont know for sure. Even with that notion I simply cannot wait for you. I got to thinking about bees. Why do we run from them? their sting only hurts for a while, yet we flee from them like it is the ultimate pain. Now while we flee from these mere insects we run back to the arms of those that hurt us the most. I do not want to be one of those foolish little girls that flees from small pain just to run into a bigger one. I will NOT be one of those girls! Forgive me my dear, but what you've put me through in the past has hurt me worse than any knife to the neck ever could. And with that parting word I say my farewell. I cannot keep holding on to the notion that you could ever love me. Men like you do not love, they only need. They need to feel loved in order to complete themself. I will not be your pawn. I love you, but goodbye, for it is not you who completes me, but another...
~Amanda