Its not easy trying to be someone you're not for someone you love
Well Im good girl now... *sigh... Im trying really hard and at first it was easy. I did all my homework, I went to all my classes, I practiced my viola... but I know that somewhere, in the back of my mind, Im thinking "when was the last time I smoked?" I wont do it anymore though. IT would risk the chance of me ever seeing any of my friends ever again. My mom wont even let me go to the mall anymore. If I hear the phrase "maybe you should get some new friends" one more time Im going to pull a vangough (Spelling?). Its like "yea ok let me just drop all these ppl who care about me and who I care about just because you dont like them." I wonder if they know how dumb that really sounds. I wonder if they could imagine dropping all of their friends. My aunt called today and started telling me how she used to do "dope" and how she thinks im in denial about my mom. I dont have a problem with my mom anymore. Shes a little too strict, and sometimes makes me feel like Im worthless but we always end up ok in the end. I really want to tell her about Ben but IDK if I should. What do u guys think?
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