my thoughts on the world
I am now going to share my deepest thoughts on the whole world around me. there is nothing more importantto me than the friends and family in my life. I don't usually put a difference between the two, in fact. I consider froends to be extended family.
I have a friend who perplexes me quite often, but no matter what she does, no matter how eternally against it i am, i simply cannot pass judgement on her. this is odd for someone as judgemental and potentially moody as myself. i very much enjoy spending time with her, and almost feel more alive when i'm with her. there is nothing romantic about this relationship, though i know that it has been a thought in both our minds at one time or another. That's not to say that i would never initiate a romantic relationship with her, but not at this time, never say never! the rate that things have been changing in just the past year alone proves that the future cannot be guessed by me. i get sad sometimes when thinking of her, because when she has a problem, she will try herd to keep it from me, thinking that i will pass judgement (as if i can with her). i wish she would accept the advice and help i offer, or come to me with her problems. nothing makes me happier than to help my friends through their problems--what else are friends for??
My other friendships are not nearly as complex as this one is, but that's not to say that they are not as deep. In our clique of close friends, i view my role as the counselor and problem solver. Nothing in this world could possibly make me happier. i love to be needed. I don't mind offering advice on other people's problems, mostly because they seem a lot bigger to the one who is experiencing the issues, and for an objective person like me, i can help my friends resolve their issues almost with just words. it is amazing how powerful words can really be.
So i have just changed jobs, and it is shaping up to be a great move. i am currently on a potentially 2500 dollar base salary, with commission on loans that i do. I am also beginng a file working with another loan officer that will yeild a $4000 commission to each of us. that will be nice! it will go straight into savings, for a rainy day. i am finally developing the last stages of my grand master plan for my life. Once career is fully secured in place, then it will be time to focus on having fun!! I can finally cut loose on the weekends, and part like the best of them, and hopefully with this new found happiness, i will finally find someone to compliment me on the romantic level. Having a family is a desire i have had for a very long time, and i am beginning to see the setup for that almost complete. My friens call this my "nesting" habit.. this is why i got a kitty... it did not curb this nesting tendency.
I am also very happy with my new job, because i get to see my family a lot more than i have in the past five years at PPP. I even get paid holidays--for example, i get a three day weekend coming this weekend, and it will be wonderful! Work is no longer my entire life, and for that i am thankful. I have to take a moment to give credit to my dear friend bobby and his uncle richard for helping me find this new dream job. I am forever in their debt! bobby and richard--I LOVE YOU GUYS!!
well, it is getting late now, and i cannot think of more htought on the world from my perspective, so until tomorrow, when a new day, and a new entry will be upon us... to my friends and family, i don't tell you this enough, but i do truly love you all!
HOLLA BACK!!
I have a friend who perplexes me quite often, but no matter what she does, no matter how eternally against it i am, i simply cannot pass judgement on her. this is odd for someone as judgemental and potentially moody as myself. i very much enjoy spending time with her, and almost feel more alive when i'm with her. there is nothing romantic about this relationship, though i know that it has been a thought in both our minds at one time or another. That's not to say that i would never initiate a romantic relationship with her, but not at this time, never say never! the rate that things have been changing in just the past year alone proves that the future cannot be guessed by me. i get sad sometimes when thinking of her, because when she has a problem, she will try herd to keep it from me, thinking that i will pass judgement (as if i can with her). i wish she would accept the advice and help i offer, or come to me with her problems. nothing makes me happier than to help my friends through their problems--what else are friends for??
My other friendships are not nearly as complex as this one is, but that's not to say that they are not as deep. In our clique of close friends, i view my role as the counselor and problem solver. Nothing in this world could possibly make me happier. i love to be needed. I don't mind offering advice on other people's problems, mostly because they seem a lot bigger to the one who is experiencing the issues, and for an objective person like me, i can help my friends resolve their issues almost with just words. it is amazing how powerful words can really be.
So i have just changed jobs, and it is shaping up to be a great move. i am currently on a potentially 2500 dollar base salary, with commission on loans that i do. I am also beginng a file working with another loan officer that will yeild a $4000 commission to each of us. that will be nice! it will go straight into savings, for a rainy day. i am finally developing the last stages of my grand master plan for my life. Once career is fully secured in place, then it will be time to focus on having fun!! I can finally cut loose on the weekends, and part like the best of them, and hopefully with this new found happiness, i will finally find someone to compliment me on the romantic level. Having a family is a desire i have had for a very long time, and i am beginning to see the setup for that almost complete. My friens call this my "nesting" habit.. this is why i got a kitty... it did not curb this nesting tendency.
I am also very happy with my new job, because i get to see my family a lot more than i have in the past five years at PPP. I even get paid holidays--for example, i get a three day weekend coming this weekend, and it will be wonderful! Work is no longer my entire life, and for that i am thankful. I have to take a moment to give credit to my dear friend bobby and his uncle richard for helping me find this new dream job. I am forever in their debt! bobby and richard--I LOVE YOU GUYS!!
well, it is getting late now, and i cannot think of more htought on the world from my perspective, so until tomorrow, when a new day, and a new entry will be upon us... to my friends and family, i don't tell you this enough, but i do truly love you all!
HOLLA BACK!!