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So. Im not excited about much right now. I have my fire academy coming up and it doesnt excite me. I just want to get it over with. Im not happy about it, im not sad about it. I just dont care. I dont care about much anymore. Latley I find my self distracted. I dont know what my problem is but I need something. I need something and I dont know what it is. Something is missing. So I go surf to not think about all the boring stuff in my life. I surf to calm myself. I surf to escape from my reality. Surfing lets me get away from all of existance and just be at peace with myself. I met a girl recently who really likes me. I think she is an awsome girl and a good freind. I dont know if i want to cross the "just freinds" boundry. I dont feel anything around her; not like i used to feel with my previous girlfreinds. I dont get that lightheaded, floating off the ground, totally head over heels feeling around her. I guess I just dont like her like i thought I did. Im sick of being single though. I want a girl. I want someone to talk to. Someone who cares. Someone to lay next to. Someone to tell things to. You get the idea. Ive given up hope on finding an awsome chick. They say the perfect one is out there. I dont think she lives in SC. Im really tired and I cant see straight. I want to go to sleep and wake up next to the perfect girl. Is that too much to ask? I guess while Im in to wishing. I also want to wake up next to a 25 million dollars. Give me the money or the chick I dont care. Im done typin. Im gonna go surf to get rid of all my crazy thoughts. later people