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So yeah. Everything's over. Josh is with Leslie, I don't get to play, and the other guy I was stringing along just cut the rope. Simply, I'm all along again. I don't know if it's me, or if it's everyone else in the world, but if they're not fuccing my sister, they're fuccing my best friend. This is the second best friend I've lost to my love interest. I lost Rockett to Mochi at the very end of the school year last year, at the end of 9th grade. I don't know if it's me, or what.
I mean, honestly, I'm not really that pretty, unless you like really fat chiccs.
But still, if you're going to act like you enjoy someone's company, don't go sneaking around that person's bacc with the best friend.
Ireallythoughthelikedme. Idon'tknowwhathappened. Ididn'tactanydifferently. Ievenreturned.h.i.s.affections.
I've never even thought about having sex with anyone, until I met him. Now I really can't get it off my mind. I don't know why I liked him so much, but I did. And now he's gone. He's even nice enough to bring her bacc here and rub it in my face that she's better than I am and that no matter how much I want him I can't have him. He made her unfaithful to her boyfriend. She cheated on her boyfriend to be with Josh. And she's not going to break up with the boyfriend. She's going to take them both. I don't know if I should be upset with her because she's known for a while how much I like Josh, or if I should just accept it and not be mad at either one. I mean, it has to be my fault somehow. Once is a mistake. Twice is a habbit.
I'm just not near pretty enough to be around the people that I am. Everyone I'm around is so beautiful, inside and out. And then there's me. I don't know what to do. I can't find a single guy that finds me attractive, and the one that I did find, I pushed away because of Josh-my hopeless dreams. And the only other person that I'm somewhat interested in is actually going out with a friend of mine. So I'm not even going to attempt that one. Unless she breaks up with him. But even then, I'm still just the rebound girl. I'm good for one thing. That's it. And it isn't my personality. And it isn't my looks.
Let's take a poll!
1)Candi should give up on ever imagining a relationship with a male
2)Candi should fight for this one - hopeless
3)Candi should move to the farthest reaches of the planet and hope to God everyone there is uglier than she is
4)Candi should sticc to the baccstabbing females that keep her from getting a boy
or 5)Candi should just play match-maker and hope to never fall in love again.
I'm done for now, I think. Any comments offered would be quite helpful right now. I'm a bit lost. I need an owner to tell me I'm being stupid and that this is all in my head. And that I really am beautiful. And that it'll all be ok in the morning.
Faithfully yours,
Candi
I mean, honestly, I'm not really that pretty, unless you like really fat chiccs.
But still, if you're going to act like you enjoy someone's company, don't go sneaking around that person's bacc with the best friend.
Ireallythoughthelikedme. Idon'tknowwhathappened. Ididn'tactanydifferently. Ievenreturned.h.i.s.affections.
I've never even thought about having sex with anyone, until I met him. Now I really can't get it off my mind. I don't know why I liked him so much, but I did. And now he's gone. He's even nice enough to bring her bacc here and rub it in my face that she's better than I am and that no matter how much I want him I can't have him. He made her unfaithful to her boyfriend. She cheated on her boyfriend to be with Josh. And she's not going to break up with the boyfriend. She's going to take them both. I don't know if I should be upset with her because she's known for a while how much I like Josh, or if I should just accept it and not be mad at either one. I mean, it has to be my fault somehow. Once is a mistake. Twice is a habbit.
I'm just not near pretty enough to be around the people that I am. Everyone I'm around is so beautiful, inside and out. And then there's me. I don't know what to do. I can't find a single guy that finds me attractive, and the one that I did find, I pushed away because of Josh-my hopeless dreams. And the only other person that I'm somewhat interested in is actually going out with a friend of mine. So I'm not even going to attempt that one. Unless she breaks up with him. But even then, I'm still just the rebound girl. I'm good for one thing. That's it. And it isn't my personality. And it isn't my looks.
Let's take a poll!
1)Candi should give up on ever imagining a relationship with a male
2)Candi should fight for this one - hopeless
3)Candi should move to the farthest reaches of the planet and hope to God everyone there is uglier than she is
4)Candi should sticc to the baccstabbing females that keep her from getting a boy
or 5)Candi should just play match-maker and hope to never fall in love again.
I'm done for now, I think. Any comments offered would be quite helpful right now. I'm a bit lost. I need an owner to tell me I'm being stupid and that this is all in my head. And that I really am beautiful. And that it'll all be ok in the morning.
Faithfully yours,
Candi