i am not a robot
Things are going considerably well, I'd say. I'm rather content, despite also feeling physically rather awful, and right now I'm just glad to be home. We went out of town and got home on Friday (we left on Tuesday), and I really had fun. There was a waterpark, I got to eat pizza, and there was a confectionery - so all in all, I'd say it was pretty fantastic. It was nice to have a break from home, I guess, and because we're almost always at home (aside from the weekends), so it was nice to get out and do stuff for those days. I have to admit, though, I don't mind being home the majority of the time (unless I get terribly bored). I do wish I'd feel better, however. I would discuss my issues, but they're kind of tmi, and right now I don't feel like going into detail.
Today, I'm going to a movie with my sister and my grandmother, which I'm happy about. At the hotel, there were a lot of cute girls (one who talked to me), but I always despair because I feel like I'll never find queer girls around, let alone queer girls around my age. It's just kind of rough? And I don't know, I'm sure I'm being ridiculous, it's just that it feels that way. And of course, I'm interested in guys too - but I just feel like I want a girlfriend? I don't know. Maybe I should just ~go with the flow~ or something.
God, I'm not very articulate, am I? I wish I could elaborate more, or make more sense, but I'm always so messy when I post on lj. Almost nothing goes on that is interesting enough to talk about; I'm almost always in a constant state of sameness, of repeating the exact same things I did yesterday. My tumblr is much more interesting, and despite the fact that it's mostly me reblogging fandom things and pictures (as well as discussion of isms, and all) I feel like it gives a lot more insight into who I am as a person. I always try and tell myself I'll commit to posting more to lj, to giving more of myself to lj, but I never do. At least I'm posting more frequently than I did before, though, I guess.
So, I wish I had something more interesting to share, but I don't.
Today, I'm going to a movie with my sister and my grandmother, which I'm happy about. At the hotel, there were a lot of cute girls (one who talked to me), but I always despair because I feel like I'll never find queer girls around, let alone queer girls around my age. It's just kind of rough? And I don't know, I'm sure I'm being ridiculous, it's just that it feels that way. And of course, I'm interested in guys too - but I just feel like I want a girlfriend? I don't know. Maybe I should just ~go with the flow~ or something.
God, I'm not very articulate, am I? I wish I could elaborate more, or make more sense, but I'm always so messy when I post on lj. Almost nothing goes on that is interesting enough to talk about; I'm almost always in a constant state of sameness, of repeating the exact same things I did yesterday. My tumblr is much more interesting, and despite the fact that it's mostly me reblogging fandom things and pictures (as well as discussion of isms, and all) I feel like it gives a lot more insight into who I am as a person. I always try and tell myself I'll commit to posting more to lj, to giving more of myself to lj, but I never do. At least I'm posting more frequently than I did before, though, I guess.
So, I wish I had something more interesting to share, but I don't.