[FIC] : To Infinity and Beyond
Title: To Infinity and Beyond (Edited by: July 21, 2013 | 5:20PM)
Beta: lemonademelon
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romance, Angst
Pairing/s: Jaejoong/Yoochun/Changmin, Jaejoong/Yoochun, Changmin/Yoochun and baby Yoobin
Length: One Shot
Warning: Girl!Yoochun
Summary: Is it wrong to love two men both at the same time? Yoochun had asked herself.
A/N: A late bday fic for two: sab08 who requested a jaechunmin fic and also for matsukisara <3
A/N 2: Sorry not the sequel for A knock, his voice and a good news (mpreg) but I managed to put Yoobin here as JaeChun's child. Hope everyone will like it. If not, still, thank you!
01.16.12 || To Infinity and Beyond
"Umma, is it wrong to have two dads?"
Yoochun had stopped what she was doing and turned to look at her daughter. She bent down at her level and eyed her lovingly, "No. Of course not, sweetie." She replied as she brushed away the strand of hair that fell on Yoobin's face.
But Yoobin pouted and looked down at her hands.
Worried, Yoochun asked, "What's wrong sweetpie? Tell mommy about it." while caressing Yoobin's cheek, smoothing the lines of worry on her forehead.
Yoobin bit her lip before looking up and meeting her mother's gaze, "Inhwan said it's wrong to have two dads, because he said there should only be a father and a mother with their child in a family. And so there is no place for another dad. He does have one dad, you know... I see Mr. Jung every morning dropping him off at school and his mom picking him up just after school-time."
"It was never wrong, sweetpie." Yoochun answered, the same time Jaejoong sat down beside them, pinching Yoobin's cheek and ruffling her hair.
"You know honey, it's not important how many Dad's you have as long as we both love you this much," Jaejoong spreading his arms widely, making little Yoobin giggle at her father's little joke. "So don't worry about what others are saying, okay?" Jaejoong smiled reassuringly.
Yoobin in return, nodded happily at her Father and pulled Jaejoong in a bear crushing hug.
"And I think you're one of the luckiest girl on earth, baby. You have the sweetest and prettiest Mom right here, and you also have two of the most good looking men that God had ever created on this world! You're so blessed, Yoobin-ah." Changmin said with a biggest grin on his face as he leaned against the refrigerator, holding a pack of OJ.
Yoobin laughed, "Changmin appa!" She jolted out of her chair and run toward Changmin. Changmin bent down and picked her up, and then they nuzzled their noses together as a greeting.
Jaejoong faced his lovely wife; Yoochun had a big smile on her face as she stared at Changmin and Yoobin's usual greetings. He, too was smiling as he went beside his wife and put his arms around her waist, planting a kiss at the side of her neck. "I love how you always smell like this in the morning. Makes me crave for something..." But left his words hanging and smiled teasingly down at Yoochun, noting the blush that had found a home in her cheeks. "Jae~!" Yoochun lightly shove Jaejoong away but Jaejoong only did tighten his hold around her.
Yoobin kissed Changmin's cheeks and wriggled out of his hold, she then run to Jaejoong tugging his shirt and motioning him to go down. Yoobin hugged her appa Jae as well, and kissed his cheeks just like what she had done with Changmin. She turned to her Mom, who was now spreading her arms widely for her.
"Umma! Umma! I love you so so much!" Yoobin said, kissing Yoochun's forehead, her eyes, down to the tip of her nose, her cheeks and then lastly pecked her on her lips. "You're the sweetest, the prettiest, the kindest and the sexiest Mom in a whole wide world!" Yoobin said, making a big circle above her head.
"Hey! How about us?" Jaejoong said, teasingly as he stood beside Changmin, both of them had their arms above their chest.
"Of course," Yoobin had started, facing her fathers without getting out of Yoochun's hold, "My Appa's are two among the best looking Dad's out there!" Then Yoobin laughed when she noticed the pout on her Appa Jae's face.
"She's biased, get over it hyung." Changmin chuckled, patting Jaejoong's shoulder as he added, "She loves her Mom more than she loves us."
Jaejoong nodded, "Well, truth hurts...yeah."
Changmin and Jaejoong both heaved a deep sigh; looking dejected. They were getting out of the kitchen when Yoobin suddenly shouted that she loves them both, more than she loves her Tigger. And slowly, a smile stretched on both on their handsome faces, At least we're above her Tigger, they thought, smiling.
(Tigger is Yoobin's life size stuffed toy that her Uncle Yoohwan had bought her)
***
Only few among JaeChun's friends really know the story behind Yoobin and her Changmin Appa.
Yoobin was the fruit of Jaejoong and Yoochun's love, so if legality was to ask, Jaejoong was the real father of Yoobin. So now the question was... How did Changmin become Yoobin's other 'handsome' father.
It had taken place about 4 years ago, when Yoobin just turned 2 years old. It happened one day when Yoochun went out with Yoobin, they were strolling in the park at that time when someone had asked Yoochun for a direction. She was too busy talking to the stranger that she didn't notice when Yoobin went to the opposite direction.
It was Changmin who found Yoobin an hour later. She was under the slide crying non-stop, calling for her Umma ChunChun. Everyone who tried to calm her down didn't succeed on making her stop. It was said that upon Changmin picking her up that Yoobin had stopped crying and surprisingly went to sleep in his arms.
Changmin was only 21 at that time.
When Yoochun had found her lost child at other man's arms, her heart skipped a beat. Strange it might seem, but it was a lovely sight to look at, she still wish she had a camera at that time, to capture that scene. Right at that moment, she felt a tug of something inside her she couldn't explain...just yet. And when their gazes met, Yoochun's heart almost jumped out of her chest, trying to reach out for the strange man.
She felt guilty at that time, still, when she asked Jaejoong that all four of them should live together. Of course, Jaejoong wasn't happy about the living arrangement, he greatly opposed to the idea of another man living with them but when Yoochun talked him out of it, that it was for Yoobin's sake; with no choice left, he agreed in the end.
At the beginning, Jaejoong had a feeling that Yoochun was cheating on him, that there was something between his wife and this Changmin guy. But Yoochun told him that, what she feels for Changmin is not exactly what she feels for him but she loves them both and that what matters most. It sounded right and so wrong at the same time.
The first year was the hardest for Jaejoong, it had taken two years for him to accept the existence of another man in his family, and it had taken him longer to accept that his wife loves another man beside him as well. Although, Jaejoong and Changmin were friends now, they still fought sometimes but nothing that would cause breaking each other's faces. They knew that, when they both agreed in this arrangement, fights and misunderstanding would happen, eventually.
On the other hand, at this point, Yoochun still couldn't categorized Changmin's place in her life but what she knew for sure was that... she loves Changmin, maybe not the way how she loves Jaejoong but she loves Changmin. And Yoobin loves her too. Jaejoong knew, she doesn't sleep with Changmin, that would be crossing the line, but she kisses him and hugs him most of the time. She was the happiest whenever she’s with Jaejoong and she knew deep down that she loves her husband more than her own life. She couldn't think even for a second of living without her Jaejoong as her soul has always been with him; tied, knotted, chained with him forever.
But when people started criticizing them for having a twisted family tree, Yoochun was the most affected. It hurts her more than anyone because she started this relationship, started it by convincing Jaejoong to let this happen. In the eyes of an outsider, it was so wrong to love both men but she couldn't let Changmin go even though that was the right thing to do. And now that Yoobin was starting to ask such question she couldn't help but feel troubled and guilty.
Honestly, it was Yoobin who brought them like this. When Changmin handed the sleeping Yoobin to her arms, she thought she would never see him ever again but she was so wrong. The moment Yoobin woke up and realized that her handsome savior was nowhere in sight, she kept crying for hours, refusing to take her milk and pushing Jaejoong's hand when Jaejoong tried to calm her down.
"Yoobin baby, Umma doesn't understand what you want." Yoochun sighed, caressing her daughter's tear stained cheeks. "Please stop crying, what do you want? Mommy will get you."
"C-c-cha--whaaaaaa!" But her daughter only cried harder.
Yoochun frowned, "Changmin?"
Yoobin's eyes lit up at the name and then she stopped screaming, " Eu-ng…C-Changmin~" she said adorably with a little hiccup.
Confused, Jaejoong turned to his wife questioningly.
"Who the fuck is Changmin?"
Yoochun clicked her tongue, not happy that he just swore off in front of their child. She thought of keeping the incident as a secret but with Yoobin’s constant wails and Jaejoong’s piercing gaze, Yoochun was left without a choice and told her husband what had occurred in the park.
What happened next was history. They luckily found a way how to contact Changmin and invited him for a dinner, for not once but a few times after that.
Until now they couldn't forget how happy Yoobin was when she saw Changmin that day. Instantly, Changmin became Yoobin's favorite playmate. Yoobin only cries whenever Changmin's says goodbye, and so that leads to Changmin staying at their house every other night. It had become a habit that lasted almost for a year.
Jaejoong got easily irritated during those times; he always felt left out and unloved whenever Changmin was around. He thought Changmin stole not only the love of his daughter but also his wife. So one day, he talked to Changmin and asked him to not to visit their house for a while.
“W-what?”
“I’m asking you to go somewhere, away from us, a vacation maybe? Just for a couple of days.”
“I’ve heard you but why?”
Jaejoong closed his eyes, taking a moment to calm his nerves as not to let irritation overpower him. He opened his eyes and said, “I just want to spend some time alone with my family. Is that so hard to understand? Do you want me to explain it much ---“
“Don’t be an arse. I got it hyung. You just have to be frank with me and if you want me to leave them as well, just say so.”
“As if you would leave…”
“Try me.”
“Then do it.”
“You won’t be seeing me after this ---“
“Won’t be seeing you? Why?” Confusion was evident on Yoochun’s face as she stared at them but neither had refused to talk. She then turned to Jaejoong, eyes silently asking why.
“I asked him to leave…have a vacation somewhere, away from us.” Jaejoong answered with a sigh.
Yoochun frowned and asked Changmin if that was true. Changmin just shrugged.
“How dare you…” She hit Jaejoong’s arms, “asked him like that!” and hit him again, much harder this time. “I don’t want him to leave, why are you being like this?”
“But baby… please.”Jaejoong tried to reach out for her but she pushed his hand away while refusing to take Changmin’s as well. Crying, she backed away and was starting to get out of the room when Yoobin’s cry rang in the air.
“Why is my Mommy crying?” Yoobin went to her and settled into her arms, wiping the tears staining her cheeks. “Appa, why are you fighting with Changmin appa? Why are you asking him to leave? Did he do something wrong? Do you hate him?”
Yoobin bombarded her father with such questions but Jaejoong couldn’t decide which one to answer first. Jaejoong chanced a glance at his wife but Yoochun refused to make an eye contact with him. While Changmin just stood there, watching the scene with a hard expression on his face.
“Come here honey…” Jaejoong said, opening his arms for her. Yoobin made her way toward him, clutching her pajamas between her tiny palms. He kissed her head as soon as she jumped on his lap. “I don’t hate your Appa Min and no sweetie, we’re not fighting. This is just an adult talk.”
“I heard you’re asking Appa Min to leave, is that the reason Mommy is crying?”
“Daddy really didn’t mean it, please forgive me?”
“Eu-ng…” She nodded, “Yoobin loves both of her Appa’s, she doesn’t want anyone to leave. She wants everyone to be happy.”
Changmin went to helped Yoochun to sit at the nearby chair as he held her hand gently.
Jaejoong felt the jealousy started to creep inside of him but before it got worse he averted his eyes elsewhere. “Changmin can stay as long as he wants to. I promised and I won’t be mad.” Jaejoong tried to put a smile on his face to assure his little Angel, good thing it worked as Yoobin’s smile returned to her face. He then reached out for his wife and Yoochun run toward him and hugged him tightly. As he looked up, he gave Changmin a silent apology.
Then Changmin motioned for Yoobin to come to him.
“You know, I have to go and be a businessman, honey.”
“You can’t do that here?”
“I can, but I’ll be better there.”
“Is that far?”
“Yes, very far.”
“How far?”
“Oceans apart. Millions miles away.”
“You’re kidding me.” She rolled her eyes, arms coming up on her chest.
“But sweetpie~”
“Shireo! Shireo! Shireo! Not leaving!”
It was Changmin's idea to give Yoobin a Deer stuffed toy, and told her to think of it as her Appa Min. Yoobin happily nodded at him, hugging her new playmate in a tight embrace. She always went to sleep with it every night but too bad the Deer stuffed toy had been hit by a car making his dear body fluff in the air. At that time, Changmin was already out of the country, studying business at US, was too sad that he couldn't comfort her little crying baby.
So Tigger came and it had been at Yoobin's life ever since. Yoobin is already 6 years old. Time truly flew so fast.
***
Jaejoong woke up without Yoochun at his side, groaning he stood up and grabbed for his robe, tied it up and went out of the room. He found Yoochun nursing a cup of tea.
"You are up so early."
"It's almost six, not that early."
Jaejoong went to pour himself a cup of coffee and sat beside Yoochun. He glanced at her side and caught the crystal sphere as it rolled down her cheek.
"Aww baby," He adjusted the chair closer to her and pulled her into his arms. "What had brought the tears on your eyes early this morning? Nightmare?"
Yoochun nodded and buried his face at his neck. "I... I dreamt of Changmin. He went away, leaving us for good."
Jaejoong rubbed her back, he knew how much it would hurt Yoochun if Changmin decided to leave them, for good. But he also knew that it’s inevitable, that they couldn't chain the man here with them forever.
"You know that in time Changmin will." Yoochun shook his head vigorously while Jaejoong continued, "He'll build his own family, will have a lovely wife and children on his own."
"We are his family."
"What part of own you did not understand huh, baby?"
She hit his arms but snuggled back at him, playing with the tail of his robe.
"But I don't want him to leave. He's happy with us."
"Maybe for now but until when? He's not getting younger, she needs a girl, well apart from you obviously, who would take care of him."
Jaejoong could feel the smile that light up at his beautiful wife's face.
"But I... If he found a girl then... then he would spent less time with us and Yoobin will be sad."
"He loves you both so much. I'm sure it would never change even if he had found someone he would want to marry."
"It still hurts to think he would love someone else other than us."
"It still hurts me just as much to see that you love other guy beside me."
Yoochun looked up and kissed Jaejoong on the lips. She whispered I love you's and I'm sorry’s between kisses and hugged him after their passionate kiss.
"You know that my love for you is totally different. I love you just this much," She drew a circle above her head, copying what Yoobin had done few years ago. "No, no. I love you from moon to back, to infinity and beyond." Yoochun said as she planted another kiss on his lips.
"Cheesy, you. I know, I know. I love you more than you ever know. And my love for you is bigger than gingerbread man’s vitality!" Jaejoong said, grinning like an idiot. Yoochun hit him again.
"How dare you insult my Park Micky like that?"
"Your Park Micky huh~"
"He's my first love!"
"Oh God, my life. I'd married a girl who has always been obsessive over some fictional guy!"
"Hey! I love you the most!"
Yoohwan entered the kitchen, a hand covering his mouth as he yawn. "Come on guys, this lovey dovey moments and your cheesiness are sickening already! It’s just 6! 6 in the morning all for saint’s sake!" Yoohwan said, opening the fridge looking for something to eat. He grabbed the box of cereals and started pouring some for himself.
Yoochun rolled his eyes and threw the soiled tissue she used not long ago.
"Yuck! That's gross Noona!" Shivering, Yoohwan went out of the kitchen with a death glare at the couple.
JaeChun just laughed at him as they hugged.
***
"There is something bothering you and you're not telling me about it." Yoochun stiffened as Changmin took a step closer to her.
"You're not talking to me like you usually do, I missed talking to you. I missed your smile, your hugs and your kisses. Why Chun ah?" Changmin's arms wound around her waist, the heat on his chest burning her back. A moment later, she relaxed and leaned against his warmth.
"Do you love me?"
"I'm always in love with you."
"Do you love our little Yoobin?"
"I couldn't imagine a day that I don't."
"I love you too, we love you too..." She stopped, taking a moment to pause as if to fight back impending tears to fall but failed as her tears slowly rolled down on her cheeks. Changmin pulled her around, taking this rare sight of his lover as she cries.
"It would be difficult for me to find someone like you. You're one of a kind, Chun ah. Even the sight of you crying can make my heart beats so fast. You are so beautiful."
Changmin cupped her face between his palms; he leaned down and pressed his lips against her. She parted her lips, tilting her head to the side as her hand came up to his neck, deepening the kiss.
"It would hurt, but would you tell me if you found her already?"
"Found her?"
"The woman you would want to marry."
Changmin stared at her for a couple of seconds, unable to utter a single word to response. There was a pang of pain that just hit his chest.
"You want me to find her now?"
"I didn't say that!" Yoochun pushed him a bit but not getting away from his hold. Yoochun bit her lips, her hands lands at his collar but stayed at the buttons of his shirt.
"Jaejoong said in time you will...leave us and build your own family. I told him we are your family. I don't want to let you go, I don't want you to leave."
"I'm not leaving."
"I know, not anytime soon but someday, I know someday you will."
Changmin leaned down again, kissing her tear stained cheeks.
"I promise. I promised that when I found her, I'll tell you but for now I won't leave you and our cute little Yoobin. And as long as you want me near, I'll be here for you. Please, remember that. I love you."
She closed her eyes but nodded as a reply. Changming kissed her again.
"Thank you."
***
Two years later
Yoochun received a text message from Changmin saying...
"I already found her. But I still love you so <3 "
Yoochun replied with, "I love you too <3 and bring her over for dinner! :)" but ran to her husband and cried on his arms. Jaejoong caressed her head lovingly and tried to soothe her, "We've already talked about this, Love."
"Doesn't mean I'm prepared!" Yoochun protested.
Jaejoong smiled at her and let his wife cried to her heart content. At least she would feel better later and wouldn't try, or at least with less effort, to stab Changmin's new girlfriend over dinner with a fork.
One year after
Changmin received a text message from Jaejoong saying...
"Congratulations on your wedding! Yoochun and Yoobin will definitely miss you around but they're happy for you. *hugs and kisses* Oh they wanted me to give you that :D But sorry we didn't come, the house is currently hit by waves of flood...if you know what I mean ( ^_^ ) Congratulations again, Min-ah! You'll always be part of our family!"
Changmin chuckled at the text and shoved his phone to his pocket, before walking down the aisle to wait for his lover at the other end.
Nine months later
The Kim-Park family received a package from Changmin. A baby picture was inside the box with the caption of...
"Meet my lovely Angel, isn't she a beauty? Her name is Sara Isabelle :)"
Another picture has Changmin in it, and immediately Yoochun began to tear up at the smiling man she had been longing to see.
"I miss you guys so much!
Yoobin honey, appa misses you this much~!"
Changmin had drawn a big circle under it with a big goofy smiley face beside it. Yoobin laughed and kissed Changmin's picture.
"Yoochun babe, I know you're crying right now. You crybaby, stop it love :) I miss and love you as always <3 and Jae hyung! Don't be jealous haha I miss you too! Let's go out and drink when I come back!"
Yoochun had cried out for an hour, clutching Changmin's picture close to her heart.
Another nine months later
Yoochun had BBM-ed Changmin with a picture attached on it.
"I named him under your name. Isn't he as handsome as you and Jaejoong combined? I miss you too as always <3 <3 <3"
Changmin smiled at the picture, "He'll definitely grow as handsome as I am!" he replied, "And remember I'll always love you, Yoochun."
Yoochun covered her mouth, trying not to sob, as tears rolled down her eyes.
“I love you too, Min-ah, both of you, to infinity and beyond.”
***
Beta: lemonademelon
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romance, Angst
Pairing/s: Jaejoong/Yoochun/Changmin, Jaejoong/Yoochun, Changmin/Yoochun and baby Yoobin
Length: One Shot
Warning: Girl!Yoochun
Summary: Is it wrong to love two men both at the same time? Yoochun had asked herself.
A/N: A late bday fic for two: sab08 who requested a jaechunmin fic and also for matsukisara <3
A/N 2: Sorry not the sequel for A knock, his voice and a good news (mpreg) but I managed to put Yoobin here as JaeChun's child. Hope everyone will like it. If not, still, thank you!
01.16.12 || To Infinity and Beyond
"Umma, is it wrong to have two dads?"
Yoochun had stopped what she was doing and turned to look at her daughter. She bent down at her level and eyed her lovingly, "No. Of course not, sweetie." She replied as she brushed away the strand of hair that fell on Yoobin's face.
But Yoobin pouted and looked down at her hands.
Worried, Yoochun asked, "What's wrong sweetpie? Tell mommy about it." while caressing Yoobin's cheek, smoothing the lines of worry on her forehead.
Yoobin bit her lip before looking up and meeting her mother's gaze, "Inhwan said it's wrong to have two dads, because he said there should only be a father and a mother with their child in a family. And so there is no place for another dad. He does have one dad, you know... I see Mr. Jung every morning dropping him off at school and his mom picking him up just after school-time."
"It was never wrong, sweetpie." Yoochun answered, the same time Jaejoong sat down beside them, pinching Yoobin's cheek and ruffling her hair.
"You know honey, it's not important how many Dad's you have as long as we both love you this much," Jaejoong spreading his arms widely, making little Yoobin giggle at her father's little joke. "So don't worry about what others are saying, okay?" Jaejoong smiled reassuringly.
Yoobin in return, nodded happily at her Father and pulled Jaejoong in a bear crushing hug.
"And I think you're one of the luckiest girl on earth, baby. You have the sweetest and prettiest Mom right here, and you also have two of the most good looking men that God had ever created on this world! You're so blessed, Yoobin-ah." Changmin said with a biggest grin on his face as he leaned against the refrigerator, holding a pack of OJ.
Yoobin laughed, "Changmin appa!" She jolted out of her chair and run toward Changmin. Changmin bent down and picked her up, and then they nuzzled their noses together as a greeting.
Jaejoong faced his lovely wife; Yoochun had a big smile on her face as she stared at Changmin and Yoobin's usual greetings. He, too was smiling as he went beside his wife and put his arms around her waist, planting a kiss at the side of her neck. "I love how you always smell like this in the morning. Makes me crave for something..." But left his words hanging and smiled teasingly down at Yoochun, noting the blush that had found a home in her cheeks. "Jae~!" Yoochun lightly shove Jaejoong away but Jaejoong only did tighten his hold around her.
Yoobin kissed Changmin's cheeks and wriggled out of his hold, she then run to Jaejoong tugging his shirt and motioning him to go down. Yoobin hugged her appa Jae as well, and kissed his cheeks just like what she had done with Changmin. She turned to her Mom, who was now spreading her arms widely for her.
"Umma! Umma! I love you so so much!" Yoobin said, kissing Yoochun's forehead, her eyes, down to the tip of her nose, her cheeks and then lastly pecked her on her lips. "You're the sweetest, the prettiest, the kindest and the sexiest Mom in a whole wide world!" Yoobin said, making a big circle above her head.
"Hey! How about us?" Jaejoong said, teasingly as he stood beside Changmin, both of them had their arms above their chest.
"Of course," Yoobin had started, facing her fathers without getting out of Yoochun's hold, "My Appa's are two among the best looking Dad's out there!" Then Yoobin laughed when she noticed the pout on her Appa Jae's face.
"She's biased, get over it hyung." Changmin chuckled, patting Jaejoong's shoulder as he added, "She loves her Mom more than she loves us."
Jaejoong nodded, "Well, truth hurts...yeah."
Changmin and Jaejoong both heaved a deep sigh; looking dejected. They were getting out of the kitchen when Yoobin suddenly shouted that she loves them both, more than she loves her Tigger. And slowly, a smile stretched on both on their handsome faces, At least we're above her Tigger, they thought, smiling.
(Tigger is Yoobin's life size stuffed toy that her Uncle Yoohwan had bought her)
***
Only few among JaeChun's friends really know the story behind Yoobin and her Changmin Appa.
Yoobin was the fruit of Jaejoong and Yoochun's love, so if legality was to ask, Jaejoong was the real father of Yoobin. So now the question was... How did Changmin become Yoobin's other 'handsome' father.
It had taken place about 4 years ago, when Yoobin just turned 2 years old. It happened one day when Yoochun went out with Yoobin, they were strolling in the park at that time when someone had asked Yoochun for a direction. She was too busy talking to the stranger that she didn't notice when Yoobin went to the opposite direction.
It was Changmin who found Yoobin an hour later. She was under the slide crying non-stop, calling for her Umma ChunChun. Everyone who tried to calm her down didn't succeed on making her stop. It was said that upon Changmin picking her up that Yoobin had stopped crying and surprisingly went to sleep in his arms.
Changmin was only 21 at that time.
When Yoochun had found her lost child at other man's arms, her heart skipped a beat. Strange it might seem, but it was a lovely sight to look at, she still wish she had a camera at that time, to capture that scene. Right at that moment, she felt a tug of something inside her she couldn't explain...just yet. And when their gazes met, Yoochun's heart almost jumped out of her chest, trying to reach out for the strange man.
She felt guilty at that time, still, when she asked Jaejoong that all four of them should live together. Of course, Jaejoong wasn't happy about the living arrangement, he greatly opposed to the idea of another man living with them but when Yoochun talked him out of it, that it was for Yoobin's sake; with no choice left, he agreed in the end.
At the beginning, Jaejoong had a feeling that Yoochun was cheating on him, that there was something between his wife and this Changmin guy. But Yoochun told him that, what she feels for Changmin is not exactly what she feels for him but she loves them both and that what matters most. It sounded right and so wrong at the same time.
The first year was the hardest for Jaejoong, it had taken two years for him to accept the existence of another man in his family, and it had taken him longer to accept that his wife loves another man beside him as well. Although, Jaejoong and Changmin were friends now, they still fought sometimes but nothing that would cause breaking each other's faces. They knew that, when they both agreed in this arrangement, fights and misunderstanding would happen, eventually.
On the other hand, at this point, Yoochun still couldn't categorized Changmin's place in her life but what she knew for sure was that... she loves Changmin, maybe not the way how she loves Jaejoong but she loves Changmin. And Yoobin loves her too. Jaejoong knew, she doesn't sleep with Changmin, that would be crossing the line, but she kisses him and hugs him most of the time. She was the happiest whenever she’s with Jaejoong and she knew deep down that she loves her husband more than her own life. She couldn't think even for a second of living without her Jaejoong as her soul has always been with him; tied, knotted, chained with him forever.
But when people started criticizing them for having a twisted family tree, Yoochun was the most affected. It hurts her more than anyone because she started this relationship, started it by convincing Jaejoong to let this happen. In the eyes of an outsider, it was so wrong to love both men but she couldn't let Changmin go even though that was the right thing to do. And now that Yoobin was starting to ask such question she couldn't help but feel troubled and guilty.
Honestly, it was Yoobin who brought them like this. When Changmin handed the sleeping Yoobin to her arms, she thought she would never see him ever again but she was so wrong. The moment Yoobin woke up and realized that her handsome savior was nowhere in sight, she kept crying for hours, refusing to take her milk and pushing Jaejoong's hand when Jaejoong tried to calm her down.
"Yoobin baby, Umma doesn't understand what you want." Yoochun sighed, caressing her daughter's tear stained cheeks. "Please stop crying, what do you want? Mommy will get you."
"C-c-cha--whaaaaaa!" But her daughter only cried harder.
Yoochun frowned, "Changmin?"
Yoobin's eyes lit up at the name and then she stopped screaming, " Eu-ng…C-Changmin~" she said adorably with a little hiccup.
Confused, Jaejoong turned to his wife questioningly.
"Who the fuck is Changmin?"
Yoochun clicked her tongue, not happy that he just swore off in front of their child. She thought of keeping the incident as a secret but with Yoobin’s constant wails and Jaejoong’s piercing gaze, Yoochun was left without a choice and told her husband what had occurred in the park.
What happened next was history. They luckily found a way how to contact Changmin and invited him for a dinner, for not once but a few times after that.
Until now they couldn't forget how happy Yoobin was when she saw Changmin that day. Instantly, Changmin became Yoobin's favorite playmate. Yoobin only cries whenever Changmin's says goodbye, and so that leads to Changmin staying at their house every other night. It had become a habit that lasted almost for a year.
Jaejoong got easily irritated during those times; he always felt left out and unloved whenever Changmin was around. He thought Changmin stole not only the love of his daughter but also his wife. So one day, he talked to Changmin and asked him to not to visit their house for a while.
“W-what?”
“I’m asking you to go somewhere, away from us, a vacation maybe? Just for a couple of days.”
“I’ve heard you but why?”
Jaejoong closed his eyes, taking a moment to calm his nerves as not to let irritation overpower him. He opened his eyes and said, “I just want to spend some time alone with my family. Is that so hard to understand? Do you want me to explain it much ---“
“Don’t be an arse. I got it hyung. You just have to be frank with me and if you want me to leave them as well, just say so.”
“As if you would leave…”
“Try me.”
“Then do it.”
“You won’t be seeing me after this ---“
“Won’t be seeing you? Why?” Confusion was evident on Yoochun’s face as she stared at them but neither had refused to talk. She then turned to Jaejoong, eyes silently asking why.
“I asked him to leave…have a vacation somewhere, away from us.” Jaejoong answered with a sigh.
Yoochun frowned and asked Changmin if that was true. Changmin just shrugged.
“How dare you…” She hit Jaejoong’s arms, “asked him like that!” and hit him again, much harder this time. “I don’t want him to leave, why are you being like this?”
“But baby… please.”Jaejoong tried to reach out for her but she pushed his hand away while refusing to take Changmin’s as well. Crying, she backed away and was starting to get out of the room when Yoobin’s cry rang in the air.
“Why is my Mommy crying?” Yoobin went to her and settled into her arms, wiping the tears staining her cheeks. “Appa, why are you fighting with Changmin appa? Why are you asking him to leave? Did he do something wrong? Do you hate him?”
Yoobin bombarded her father with such questions but Jaejoong couldn’t decide which one to answer first. Jaejoong chanced a glance at his wife but Yoochun refused to make an eye contact with him. While Changmin just stood there, watching the scene with a hard expression on his face.
“Come here honey…” Jaejoong said, opening his arms for her. Yoobin made her way toward him, clutching her pajamas between her tiny palms. He kissed her head as soon as she jumped on his lap. “I don’t hate your Appa Min and no sweetie, we’re not fighting. This is just an adult talk.”
“I heard you’re asking Appa Min to leave, is that the reason Mommy is crying?”
“Daddy really didn’t mean it, please forgive me?”
“Eu-ng…” She nodded, “Yoobin loves both of her Appa’s, she doesn’t want anyone to leave. She wants everyone to be happy.”
Changmin went to helped Yoochun to sit at the nearby chair as he held her hand gently.
Jaejoong felt the jealousy started to creep inside of him but before it got worse he averted his eyes elsewhere. “Changmin can stay as long as he wants to. I promised and I won’t be mad.” Jaejoong tried to put a smile on his face to assure his little Angel, good thing it worked as Yoobin’s smile returned to her face. He then reached out for his wife and Yoochun run toward him and hugged him tightly. As he looked up, he gave Changmin a silent apology.
Then Changmin motioned for Yoobin to come to him.
“You know, I have to go and be a businessman, honey.”
“You can’t do that here?”
“I can, but I’ll be better there.”
“Is that far?”
“Yes, very far.”
“How far?”
“Oceans apart. Millions miles away.”
“You’re kidding me.” She rolled her eyes, arms coming up on her chest.
“But sweetpie~”
“Shireo! Shireo! Shireo! Not leaving!”
It was Changmin's idea to give Yoobin a Deer stuffed toy, and told her to think of it as her Appa Min. Yoobin happily nodded at him, hugging her new playmate in a tight embrace. She always went to sleep with it every night but too bad the Deer stuffed toy had been hit by a car making his dear body fluff in the air. At that time, Changmin was already out of the country, studying business at US, was too sad that he couldn't comfort her little crying baby.
So Tigger came and it had been at Yoobin's life ever since. Yoobin is already 6 years old. Time truly flew so fast.
***
Jaejoong woke up without Yoochun at his side, groaning he stood up and grabbed for his robe, tied it up and went out of the room. He found Yoochun nursing a cup of tea.
"You are up so early."
"It's almost six, not that early."
Jaejoong went to pour himself a cup of coffee and sat beside Yoochun. He glanced at her side and caught the crystal sphere as it rolled down her cheek.
"Aww baby," He adjusted the chair closer to her and pulled her into his arms. "What had brought the tears on your eyes early this morning? Nightmare?"
Yoochun nodded and buried his face at his neck. "I... I dreamt of Changmin. He went away, leaving us for good."
Jaejoong rubbed her back, he knew how much it would hurt Yoochun if Changmin decided to leave them, for good. But he also knew that it’s inevitable, that they couldn't chain the man here with them forever.
"You know that in time Changmin will." Yoochun shook his head vigorously while Jaejoong continued, "He'll build his own family, will have a lovely wife and children on his own."
"We are his family."
"What part of own you did not understand huh, baby?"
She hit his arms but snuggled back at him, playing with the tail of his robe.
"But I don't want him to leave. He's happy with us."
"Maybe for now but until when? He's not getting younger, she needs a girl, well apart from you obviously, who would take care of him."
Jaejoong could feel the smile that light up at his beautiful wife's face.
"But I... If he found a girl then... then he would spent less time with us and Yoobin will be sad."
"He loves you both so much. I'm sure it would never change even if he had found someone he would want to marry."
"It still hurts to think he would love someone else other than us."
"It still hurts me just as much to see that you love other guy beside me."
Yoochun looked up and kissed Jaejoong on the lips. She whispered I love you's and I'm sorry’s between kisses and hugged him after their passionate kiss.
"You know that my love for you is totally different. I love you just this much," She drew a circle above her head, copying what Yoobin had done few years ago. "No, no. I love you from moon to back, to infinity and beyond." Yoochun said as she planted another kiss on his lips.
"Cheesy, you. I know, I know. I love you more than you ever know. And my love for you is bigger than gingerbread man’s vitality!" Jaejoong said, grinning like an idiot. Yoochun hit him again.
"How dare you insult my Park Micky like that?"
"Your Park Micky huh~"
"He's my first love!"
"Oh God, my life. I'd married a girl who has always been obsessive over some fictional guy!"
"Hey! I love you the most!"
Yoohwan entered the kitchen, a hand covering his mouth as he yawn. "Come on guys, this lovey dovey moments and your cheesiness are sickening already! It’s just 6! 6 in the morning all for saint’s sake!" Yoohwan said, opening the fridge looking for something to eat. He grabbed the box of cereals and started pouring some for himself.
Yoochun rolled his eyes and threw the soiled tissue she used not long ago.
"Yuck! That's gross Noona!" Shivering, Yoohwan went out of the kitchen with a death glare at the couple.
JaeChun just laughed at him as they hugged.
***
"There is something bothering you and you're not telling me about it." Yoochun stiffened as Changmin took a step closer to her.
"You're not talking to me like you usually do, I missed talking to you. I missed your smile, your hugs and your kisses. Why Chun ah?" Changmin's arms wound around her waist, the heat on his chest burning her back. A moment later, she relaxed and leaned against his warmth.
"Do you love me?"
"I'm always in love with you."
"Do you love our little Yoobin?"
"I couldn't imagine a day that I don't."
"I love you too, we love you too..." She stopped, taking a moment to pause as if to fight back impending tears to fall but failed as her tears slowly rolled down on her cheeks. Changmin pulled her around, taking this rare sight of his lover as she cries.
"It would be difficult for me to find someone like you. You're one of a kind, Chun ah. Even the sight of you crying can make my heart beats so fast. You are so beautiful."
Changmin cupped her face between his palms; he leaned down and pressed his lips against her. She parted her lips, tilting her head to the side as her hand came up to his neck, deepening the kiss.
"It would hurt, but would you tell me if you found her already?"
"Found her?"
"The woman you would want to marry."
Changmin stared at her for a couple of seconds, unable to utter a single word to response. There was a pang of pain that just hit his chest.
"You want me to find her now?"
"I didn't say that!" Yoochun pushed him a bit but not getting away from his hold. Yoochun bit her lips, her hands lands at his collar but stayed at the buttons of his shirt.
"Jaejoong said in time you will...leave us and build your own family. I told him we are your family. I don't want to let you go, I don't want you to leave."
"I'm not leaving."
"I know, not anytime soon but someday, I know someday you will."
Changmin leaned down again, kissing her tear stained cheeks.
"I promise. I promised that when I found her, I'll tell you but for now I won't leave you and our cute little Yoobin. And as long as you want me near, I'll be here for you. Please, remember that. I love you."
She closed her eyes but nodded as a reply. Changming kissed her again.
"Thank you."
***
Two years later
Yoochun received a text message from Changmin saying...
"I already found her. But I still love you so <3 "
Yoochun replied with, "I love you too <3 and bring her over for dinner! :)" but ran to her husband and cried on his arms. Jaejoong caressed her head lovingly and tried to soothe her, "We've already talked about this, Love."
"Doesn't mean I'm prepared!" Yoochun protested.
Jaejoong smiled at her and let his wife cried to her heart content. At least she would feel better later and wouldn't try, or at least with less effort, to stab Changmin's new girlfriend over dinner with a fork.
One year after
Changmin received a text message from Jaejoong saying...
"Congratulations on your wedding! Yoochun and Yoobin will definitely miss you around but they're happy for you. *hugs and kisses* Oh they wanted me to give you that :D But sorry we didn't come, the house is currently hit by waves of flood...if you know what I mean ( ^_^ ) Congratulations again, Min-ah! You'll always be part of our family!"
Changmin chuckled at the text and shoved his phone to his pocket, before walking down the aisle to wait for his lover at the other end.
Nine months later
The Kim-Park family received a package from Changmin. A baby picture was inside the box with the caption of...
"Meet my lovely Angel, isn't she a beauty? Her name is Sara Isabelle :)"
Another picture has Changmin in it, and immediately Yoochun began to tear up at the smiling man she had been longing to see.
"I miss you guys so much!
Yoobin honey, appa misses you this much~!"
Changmin had drawn a big circle under it with a big goofy smiley face beside it. Yoobin laughed and kissed Changmin's picture.
"Yoochun babe, I know you're crying right now. You crybaby, stop it love :) I miss and love you as always <3 and Jae hyung! Don't be jealous haha I miss you too! Let's go out and drink when I come back!"
Yoochun had cried out for an hour, clutching Changmin's picture close to her heart.
Another nine months later
Yoochun had BBM-ed Changmin with a picture attached on it.
"I named him under your name. Isn't he as handsome as you and Jaejoong combined? I miss you too as always <3 <3 <3"
Changmin smiled at the picture, "He'll definitely grow as handsome as I am!" he replied, "And remember I'll always love you, Yoochun."
Yoochun covered her mouth, trying not to sob, as tears rolled down her eyes.
“I love you too, Min-ah, both of you, to infinity and beyond.”
***