hurray
blah today has just been one of thoes days where i had way too much time to sit and think. this whole julie thing still bothers me even tho the one thing i want is for it to be over
i hate the fact that shes happy and i have to sit here and be depressed about it n shit its not fair and i hate the fact that she keeps rubbing it in that it was my fault.
NO SHIT i fucked up and i paid the price by loosing her but she dosnt even care. shes all happy with her new man and im not even a part of her life nemore i guess this is what i wanted tho cuz shes happy and i wanted her to be happy
she wants me to be her friend but i cant do that. i cant sit there and watch her be happy with someone else wondering if that coulda been me it hurts too much
i realize now her and i can never be together again and im ok with that ill find someone else and ill use what ive learned to make things good but for now i just hate the fact that shes happy and im miserable o well this is life i guess
i hate the fact that shes happy and i have to sit here and be depressed about it n shit its not fair and i hate the fact that she keeps rubbing it in that it was my fault.
NO SHIT i fucked up and i paid the price by loosing her but she dosnt even care. shes all happy with her new man and im not even a part of her life nemore i guess this is what i wanted tho cuz shes happy and i wanted her to be happy
she wants me to be her friend but i cant do that. i cant sit there and watch her be happy with someone else wondering if that coulda been me it hurts too much
i realize now her and i can never be together again and im ok with that ill find someone else and ill use what ive learned to make things good but for now i just hate the fact that shes happy and im miserable o well this is life i guess