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*looks around*
Clean up on aslie four?
Yeah, this place is dusty.
Long story short... I feel like shit.
My life is going down the shitter.
My cat just took a shit.
I don't really give a shit.
And I have way to much SHIT in my head.
BUT!
Life goes on.
And I should be getting a down comforter soon... as in like... tomorrow... and that is, in no way, shit.
But, it will give me more initiative to stay in bed all day.
But I do that anyways.
Haha, oh well.
Hopefully I wrok tomorrow.
I love my job.
I'm very emotionally detached right now.
And I'm failing school.
I only spend money on rent.
I usually don't have any food.
But I make $8 an hour... go figure.
I'm not talking to my favorite person in the world at the moment... but that's my choice.
I'm getting meds on Monday.
I've been on suicide watch on and off for about two months now.
I was threated to be 51/50ed
I'm back in therapy.
Nobody can handle me.
But then again I don't want them to.
I"ve really bit off more then I can chew this time.
I've extremely anti-social... so I'm truely sorry for not returing phone calls/emails/comments/letters/messages/ or IMs.
I don't hate any of you, I actually love you very much.
Just am incapable of showing it.
And I truely am sorry.
I haven't made any friends.
I am offically a hermit.
I love my kitty.
She never leaves my side.
I've lost a total of 35lbs, but am gaining it back... and already have a good start.
I love bread.
And water
And my bed
And my eyeliner.
And most of all, I love my friends.
I feel like shit for being so distant and cold.
I feel like shit for pretending everything's been going okay to some of you.
Cause it hasn't.
It really hasn't.
But I love my job, and I hope to have someone come out and stay with me soon.
I'm becoming more stable, and am trying to be more open.
Hence this entry.
I don't want pitty.
I didn't post this for attention.
Simply to inform.
And for everyone to understand that I love them and miss them, and when I get back on my feet I will try to make a mends, if they will let me.
I wont be coming back to Davis for Thanksgiving, but hopefully a bit over Christmas break.
I'm getting help, and will be okay.
I don't want anyone to worry.
It's just a slow uphill climb for me right now.
And there you have it, my life in a tiny tiny nut shell.
I love you!
Clean up on aslie four?
Yeah, this place is dusty.
Long story short... I feel like shit.
My life is going down the shitter.
My cat just took a shit.
I don't really give a shit.
And I have way to much SHIT in my head.
BUT!
Life goes on.
And I should be getting a down comforter soon... as in like... tomorrow... and that is, in no way, shit.
But, it will give me more initiative to stay in bed all day.
But I do that anyways.
Haha, oh well.
Hopefully I wrok tomorrow.
I love my job.
I'm very emotionally detached right now.
And I'm failing school.
I only spend money on rent.
I usually don't have any food.
But I make $8 an hour... go figure.
I'm not talking to my favorite person in the world at the moment... but that's my choice.
I'm getting meds on Monday.
I've been on suicide watch on and off for about two months now.
I was threated to be 51/50ed
I'm back in therapy.
Nobody can handle me.
But then again I don't want them to.
I"ve really bit off more then I can chew this time.
I've extremely anti-social... so I'm truely sorry for not returing phone calls/emails/comments/letters/messages/ or IMs.
I don't hate any of you, I actually love you very much.
Just am incapable of showing it.
And I truely am sorry.
I haven't made any friends.
I am offically a hermit.
I love my kitty.
She never leaves my side.
I've lost a total of 35lbs, but am gaining it back... and already have a good start.
I love bread.
And water
And my bed
And my eyeliner.
And most of all, I love my friends.
I feel like shit for being so distant and cold.
I feel like shit for pretending everything's been going okay to some of you.
Cause it hasn't.
It really hasn't.
But I love my job, and I hope to have someone come out and stay with me soon.
I'm becoming more stable, and am trying to be more open.
Hence this entry.
I don't want pitty.
I didn't post this for attention.
Simply to inform.
And for everyone to understand that I love them and miss them, and when I get back on my feet I will try to make a mends, if they will let me.
I wont be coming back to Davis for Thanksgiving, but hopefully a bit over Christmas break.
I'm getting help, and will be okay.
I don't want anyone to worry.
It's just a slow uphill climb for me right now.
And there you have it, my life in a tiny tiny nut shell.
I love you!