*serious*
I think i have finally figured out what i was [or wasn't rather] feeling last night when i saw Jen.
WillistonFireD: i dont want to read into anything b/c i don't know who anybody was, but i am almost positive now that she is more likely than not, straight
WillistonFireD: i dont know i have just been feeling confused
Kcd6788: yea i know the feeling well
WillistonFireD: not really as to why i thought i recieved signals back, but as to why i felt nothing when i "discovered" it all
WillistonFireD: i wasn't depressed, or sad i just didn't feel anything
WillistonFireD: that bothers me a lot
WillistonFireD: i still care about her the same way, but my mind didn't try to make any excuses as to what i saw him do and i didn't get sad about it all
WillistonFireD: maybe it was just my way of being ok with everything, she seemed happy so i guess in my mind i couldn't feel anything except happiness
I guess that's all i want; i know i'll most likely never receive the same feelings i feel towards her back, so all i can do is hope she is happy wherever and with whoever she ends up with and accept the friendship i still have.
WillistonFireD: i dont want to read into anything b/c i don't know who anybody was, but i am almost positive now that she is more likely than not, straight
WillistonFireD: i dont know i have just been feeling confused
Kcd6788: yea i know the feeling well
WillistonFireD: not really as to why i thought i recieved signals back, but as to why i felt nothing when i "discovered" it all
WillistonFireD: i wasn't depressed, or sad i just didn't feel anything
WillistonFireD: that bothers me a lot
WillistonFireD: i still care about her the same way, but my mind didn't try to make any excuses as to what i saw him do and i didn't get sad about it all
WillistonFireD: maybe it was just my way of being ok with everything, she seemed happy so i guess in my mind i couldn't feel anything except happiness
I guess that's all i want; i know i'll most likely never receive the same feelings i feel towards her back, so all i can do is hope she is happy wherever and with whoever she ends up with and accept the friendship i still have.