Random Notes
So, my brother left from Mississippi for Iraq the other day. Apparently after he left VT last week, he was actually headed back to Miss. to finish getting packed and ready, then he would head over to Iraq with the rest of the guard members. I'mdoing good though; i'm proud of him for what he's doing. i don't feel i have to worry about him. i love him and he knows that, we get along, if anything were to happen it's not like i can change it. It's something i have come to accept. Don't get me wrong, i would definately be sadened if anything does happen to him over there [god forbid] but i am ok with everything, he's doing something he wants to do, there's no better way to go i feel than by doing something you love.
On another note, i went up to Charlotte and visited Phil the other night. that was fun. I ended up driving us around, we went near the beach and then decided it wasn't a good idea to stay there beause some guys might come out and yell at us for parking in the lot and make us pay to park there. So we went over to the central school and swang on the swings for about 1/2 hour. The only weird part was when Phil noticed these two kids "gettin' it on" over at the playround area....it was dark out so...
As far as Florida goes, i really would like to know when i'm going to be leavng...as in an exact date. I still have yet to find that out from my aunt's brother though. Hopefully i will get to be in contact with her this weekend and figure it all out.
I'm getting a little nervous though, i mean i have about 1 1/2 months before i leave. It sounds like a lot...but it's not. I have already started packing away some of the useless junk in my room...like these mardi gras festival beads which i have had for a couple years i think. It's been fun though. I also "re-discovered" this little owl dangeling from a key ring that Jen gave me last year from the Greece trip. I never lost it; it has been sitting on my desk next to my class ring (which i never seem to wear anymore oddly). i just rarely look at all the stuff i have around me anymore b/c i am hardly ever home except at night.
that kinda (not really) brings me to another point that i sort of talked about with my cousin and his g/f / finance / ? a couple nights ago. She brought up how she had tried talking with my mom (she's about the same age as her so..) about trying not to be really clingy before i leave b/c her ex-husband ddi that with her son and it only pushed him farther away..so far as to he nver told his father when he was up in the area from college. Then we got to talking about how "this life" is really all that my mom has ever known...wondering what it's going to be like for them after i leave...wondering if they're going to stay together if it will all fall apart [their marriage]. Sometimes i really do think they will get a divorce in the future...i give it about maybe a year or two. I only think this because both of them really don't have any friends outside of work other than family memebers. Even so their work friends are just at work. They don't hang out with them or anything. Whenever my mom seemed to have issues with how my dad did, or didn't do something she would always come bitching to me about it. I was always like, i'm sorry, but i don't want to deal with it, i have enough of my own problems and enough problems figuring out all my friends. i don't want any more than what i have. I don't like making their problems my problems, i'm sick of it. So that's partially why i am curious to see if things will last between them, after i leave all they will have to bitch to is family. Not to mention the occasional verba fights they like to have.
Yes, i love my parents [i think] but the past couple years sometimes i have actually wished they would just get a divorce.
w/e anyway i'm gonna go for now
my god it's still about 88 degrees outside....IT'S SO NICE...*YEY* SUN!!! positive attiude about the heat works much better than a negative! Gettin mad only makes you hotter which makes everything more uncomfortable!!! keep that one in mind!
On another note, i went up to Charlotte and visited Phil the other night. that was fun. I ended up driving us around, we went near the beach and then decided it wasn't a good idea to stay there beause some guys might come out and yell at us for parking in the lot and make us pay to park there. So we went over to the central school and swang on the swings for about 1/2 hour. The only weird part was when Phil noticed these two kids "gettin' it on" over at the playround area....it was dark out so...
As far as Florida goes, i really would like to know when i'm going to be leavng...as in an exact date. I still have yet to find that out from my aunt's brother though. Hopefully i will get to be in contact with her this weekend and figure it all out.
I'm getting a little nervous though, i mean i have about 1 1/2 months before i leave. It sounds like a lot...but it's not. I have already started packing away some of the useless junk in my room...like these mardi gras festival beads which i have had for a couple years i think. It's been fun though. I also "re-discovered" this little owl dangeling from a key ring that Jen gave me last year from the Greece trip. I never lost it; it has been sitting on my desk next to my class ring (which i never seem to wear anymore oddly). i just rarely look at all the stuff i have around me anymore b/c i am hardly ever home except at night.
that kinda (not really) brings me to another point that i sort of talked about with my cousin and his g/f / finance / ? a couple nights ago. She brought up how she had tried talking with my mom (she's about the same age as her so..) about trying not to be really clingy before i leave b/c her ex-husband ddi that with her son and it only pushed him farther away..so far as to he nver told his father when he was up in the area from college. Then we got to talking about how "this life" is really all that my mom has ever known...wondering what it's going to be like for them after i leave...wondering if they're going to stay together if it will all fall apart [their marriage]. Sometimes i really do think they will get a divorce in the future...i give it about maybe a year or two. I only think this because both of them really don't have any friends outside of work other than family memebers. Even so their work friends are just at work. They don't hang out with them or anything. Whenever my mom seemed to have issues with how my dad did, or didn't do something she would always come bitching to me about it. I was always like, i'm sorry, but i don't want to deal with it, i have enough of my own problems and enough problems figuring out all my friends. i don't want any more than what i have. I don't like making their problems my problems, i'm sick of it. So that's partially why i am curious to see if things will last between them, after i leave all they will have to bitch to is family. Not to mention the occasional verba fights they like to have.
Yes, i love my parents [i think] but the past couple years sometimes i have actually wished they would just get a divorce.
w/e anyway i'm gonna go for now
my god it's still about 88 degrees outside....IT'S SO NICE...*YEY* SUN!!! positive attiude about the heat works much better than a negative! Gettin mad only makes you hotter which makes everything more uncomfortable!!! keep that one in mind!