*sighs*
So this past weekend i went to 3 graduation parties and went out to eat like twice. Friday night i went out to The Dog Team Tavern with Dave and Phil, and Dave's mom and sister and step dad. it was fun, although Dave had to stop at almost every place that had a subaru for sale on the way back home, so i didn't end up leaving his house until about 10:30pm for a party in Mallet's Bay (which i got to at 11pm). Stayed the night there. Then saturday i went back home for a little bit and then went out to Mandy's party around 3:30 then jumped over to Hinesburd FD for Tyler Wainer and Jen Pike's party. then back over to Mandy's. Mandy's party was probably the most fun. Lmao ten of us jumped into her big swimming pool, some of us fully clothed (including me) others were smart and put swimsuits on. We went into the hot tub after that, boy did that feel nice and warm!
The only thing that i have manged to feel lke shit about lately is how things ended between Jen C. and I. I still have yet to hear back from her after that e-mail. I wish i could have at least seen her at graduation, but there were so many damn people there i didn't get the chance to. i don't even know if she was there. She said before that she was going to be, but who knows if she actually was. I probably shocked the heck out of her by telling her how much i care about her. i just wish i could have sad goodbye, even if i would have felt extremely awkward...it's better than just never seeing her again and ruining the friendship that we had because i fell for her.
I just wish she would write.
i don't regret telling her that i love her and care about her a lot, b/c if i never said anything i always would have wondered "what if?" I would ave been so mad at myself if i had ever gotten the guts to just tell her, even if it was only by e-mail.
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here's what i sent her, i don't know if i put it in the last entry, so i'm just gonna include it in this one....
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Hey there, it's just like old times, except not as long!
I've thought about what to say, or should I say anything over the past 2 - 3 years. If I do say something when should I say it? Thoughts were always running through my mind about not wanting to jeopardize anything for you or hurt you in any way. I don't think there's any other way I could say it better than this, and now seems like the right time. I expect nothing, however, if ever I were to regret anything in my life it would be that I never told you how much I care about you. Words cannot begin to describe how I feel about you. Just being in your presence gives me this sense of security that I don't want to ever loose.You're a very intelligent and beautiful person with captivating eyes that can pull anyone in. I love you, and I will never forget you.
Take care,
~Jenn
The only thing that i have manged to feel lke shit about lately is how things ended between Jen C. and I. I still have yet to hear back from her after that e-mail. I wish i could have at least seen her at graduation, but there were so many damn people there i didn't get the chance to. i don't even know if she was there. She said before that she was going to be, but who knows if she actually was. I probably shocked the heck out of her by telling her how much i care about her. i just wish i could have sad goodbye, even if i would have felt extremely awkward...it's better than just never seeing her again and ruining the friendship that we had because i fell for her.
I just wish she would write.
i don't regret telling her that i love her and care about her a lot, b/c if i never said anything i always would have wondered "what if?" I would ave been so mad at myself if i had ever gotten the guts to just tell her, even if it was only by e-mail.
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here's what i sent her, i don't know if i put it in the last entry, so i'm just gonna include it in this one....
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Hey there, it's just like old times, except not as long!
I've thought about what to say, or should I say anything over the past 2 - 3 years. If I do say something when should I say it? Thoughts were always running through my mind about not wanting to jeopardize anything for you or hurt you in any way. I don't think there's any other way I could say it better than this, and now seems like the right time. I expect nothing, however, if ever I were to regret anything in my life it would be that I never told you how much I care about you. Words cannot begin to describe how I feel about you. Just being in your presence gives me this sense of security that I don't want to ever loose.You're a very intelligent and beautiful person with captivating eyes that can pull anyone in. I love you, and I will never forget you.
Take care,
~Jenn