I need to take a couple bottles of chill pills...
Last night I had a WICKED BAD emotional breakdown when I got on the phone with him. I just get so frustrated with the entire situation and then cry because I know there is nothing I can do to fix it. Bless that boy's heart...he just sat and listened. We learned some new stuff about eachother last night. Important stuff. The kinda stuff that can either make or break a relationship.
I guess all we can do is continue our nightly chats, write letters, and let eachother know that we still care about one another. As much as I hate it, I know I'm gonna have to put us on hold for a while...and that sucks...alot. So much can go wrong and change while things are on hold...but thats the risk that we are being forced to take. Any other way would be wrong. He and I KNEW this was gonna happen...we saw it coming miles and miles away...but we didn't care. Now its time to pay for all those cuddles and blissful sleepless nights. Normally, with enough thought and strategizing, I can find my way around any tough obstacle or situation. But not this one. I just gotta let go and see what happens.
I guess all we can do is continue our nightly chats, write letters, and let eachother know that we still care about one another. As much as I hate it, I know I'm gonna have to put us on hold for a while...and that sucks...alot. So much can go wrong and change while things are on hold...but thats the risk that we are being forced to take. Any other way would be wrong. He and I KNEW this was gonna happen...we saw it coming miles and miles away...but we didn't care. Now its time to pay for all those cuddles and blissful sleepless nights. Normally, with enough thought and strategizing, I can find my way around any tough obstacle or situation. But not this one. I just gotta let go and see what happens.