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Feb 18, 2007 00:56

Choose a band or artist and answer only in song titles by that band:

Morrissey (yes, life is just that depressing and boring that I'm a. filling this out, and b. using Morrissey song titles.)

Are you female or male: Girl least likely to
Describe yourself: It's hard to walk tall when you're small
How do some people feel about you: My life is a succession of people saying goodbye
How do you feel about yourself: November spawned a monster
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: (not really applicable, but) I just want to see the boy happy
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend: Nobody loves us
Describe where you want to be: America is not the world
Describe what you want to be: Sister, I'm a poet
Describe how you live: There's a place in hell for me and my friends
Describe how you love: We'll let you know
Share a few words of wisdom: I don't mind if you forget me

OY, I hate everything right now. I know what'll make me feel better, COMPLAINING TO NO ONE. I sometimes wonder if there will always be times like this one when I feel so lonely and weird and sad for no reason. If I were a normalish, emotionally functional human being, I might cry, but that's not how I roll. If I were a good, motivated student I would do work, but I don't. I got nothing. I'm discontent (and a malcontent) but I don't know what to do about it. I should just go to sleep and know that I'll feel better in the morning but I don't sleep like a human either, THANKS, BRAIN. I need a friend to hang out with in the middle of the night.

I went into the cafe to get a bottle of water and it was totally empty, there were like three people plus the two working. What the fuck. I guess every damn person on this campus is at the party in Manor. Maybe I should have gone, but I am a doddering old person now and don't want to haul my damn ass all the way over there to the other side of campus. Plus, I'm not one nor have I ever been one for partying. Also my mystery leg pain and lower back pain won't go away. My back's hurt for a week, and my leg for a couple of days. NO EXPLANATION except for bullshit "It's Alexander Technique, you're hyper-aware of your body." Hell to the hell to the HELL to the no. As a general rule, I pay as little attention to my corporeal prescence as possible, unless it hurts. I suspect the pain is caused by awkwardly trudging through snow/trying not to fall on my ass on some ice, not some weird bullshit posture thang whose class I only am taking because I need the one credit it's worth. Look closely, you can see me limp, it's awesome, I feel totally confident and capable of walking like a normal human being. I can't even go for a drive, and it's not because my car is being weird (like that would stop me), it's the damn snow blocking it in. I a. don't have a shovel, and b. don't want to hurt my back worse shoveling 800 pounds of ice and snow.

Hey, should I complain some more? It totally isn't helping at all. If my back/leg would stop hurting I would dance around ridiculously to "Miss New Booty" or something and might feel better, although that's always more fun when there are people around to laugh at me.
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