Oy...I need distractions
So needless to say, from my last journal, Im unemployed again. That reminds me, I need to go see if I got paid or not. Every little bit helps right now.
But as the title says...I serious need a distraction. The financial issue going on here at the apartment, along with Snow, and hell, the world as well...Its just driving me emo. I kinda want to kick myself for not working on trying to get another job the past couple days...but...mmmmph...my body is giving me the middle finger. I have so much friggin stress inside me right now, and no way to unleash it. Me and Snow have been biting at each other occasionally, especially him. He really...needs to get some anger management. He gets upset over the simplest things, then takes it out on me.
Me...I admit...I need some therapy. I need therapy anyway for that gender certificate...but I really need someone to help me with my recent emotional and stress problems.
Ive tried my best to get involved with my video games....what little I have anyway. Nothing I have excites me, and at most, gives me an hour away from my mind, then I feel like wacking my head against the wall.
I need some new hobbies...but everything cost money. And my artistic muse is all but dead. I have yet to draw anything since the Farellemoon drawing on my FA. Ive got a commission and a trade to do too (Which i really need to do if I want to go to MFF), but I cant get myself to do anything besides try to draw the figure...and I cant even do that. It looks like I forgot how to draw again, almost. -_-
Part of me wants to learn how to make fursuits...since it looks like I wont be able to comission one for another 3 years...but I need to learn how to sew to do that. Im not good with my hands, since they naturally shake (I blame my father for that; always being scared).
But really I just need like...half a week or even a whole week away from all this friggin stress...But I know dear Suni cant take any time off, nor would I feel comfortable down there for a week, since they have enough trouble with feeding 4 people. Blaarrrg...I have so much other stuff on my mind, but Im drawing a dead brain. Ill reupdate if I can think of anything else...
But as the title says...I serious need a distraction. The financial issue going on here at the apartment, along with Snow, and hell, the world as well...Its just driving me emo. I kinda want to kick myself for not working on trying to get another job the past couple days...but...mmmmph...my body is giving me the middle finger. I have so much friggin stress inside me right now, and no way to unleash it. Me and Snow have been biting at each other occasionally, especially him. He really...needs to get some anger management. He gets upset over the simplest things, then takes it out on me.
Me...I admit...I need some therapy. I need therapy anyway for that gender certificate...but I really need someone to help me with my recent emotional and stress problems.
Ive tried my best to get involved with my video games....what little I have anyway. Nothing I have excites me, and at most, gives me an hour away from my mind, then I feel like wacking my head against the wall.
I need some new hobbies...but everything cost money. And my artistic muse is all but dead. I have yet to draw anything since the Farellemoon drawing on my FA. Ive got a commission and a trade to do too (Which i really need to do if I want to go to MFF), but I cant get myself to do anything besides try to draw the figure...and I cant even do that. It looks like I forgot how to draw again, almost. -_-
Part of me wants to learn how to make fursuits...since it looks like I wont be able to comission one for another 3 years...but I need to learn how to sew to do that. Im not good with my hands, since they naturally shake (I blame my father for that; always being scared).
But really I just need like...half a week or even a whole week away from all this friggin stress...But I know dear Suni cant take any time off, nor would I feel comfortable down there for a week, since they have enough trouble with feeding 4 people. Blaarrrg...I have so much other stuff on my mind, but Im drawing a dead brain. Ill reupdate if I can think of anything else...