fic: Peaches, Chapter 7
Title: Peaches, Chapter Seven
Author: finurtchel
Rating: R (mainly to keep the whole story together as later chapters are the R parts)
Spoilers: none in this chapter, really. Maybe Special Education but barely, epecially seeing as I don't really know exactly when this is taking place.
Warnings: lots of Rachel, and it's probably not as good as the other chapters
Disclaimer: I do not own Glee.
Summary: Finn is involved in a fender-bender while driving Kurt's car.
Authors Comments: I am so sorry that its been over a month since my last update! I won't bore you with excuses though, but I do feel like my writing in this is a little.... well... not good. So hope you like it anyway and hope it was worth the wait. If you review lots than maybe I'll write the next chapter, wherein Finn and Kurt will share their first kiss, a lot sooner! Happy reading! Oh, and sorry about the different layout. I finally figured out how to use the indent thing.... =P
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I sit awkwardly on my bed, the phone pressed to my ear, waiting to hear the shrill voice of Rachel Berry. I’m not a heartless person; obviously I’m not looking forward to breaking Rachel’s heart but the pleased look on Kurt’s face is sort of making me unable to feel anything but happiness.
And anyway, this was going to be easy wasn’t it? All I had to say was: “Sorry, Rachel, but we can’t be together anymore because I love Kurt now” and then she’d say something like “oh, I’m sorry about that, Finn, but I’m really happy for you. I hope we can still be friends!” And then I’d smile and say “of course!” and she’d laugh happily and then we’d hang up.
And then I’ll reach over grab Kurt and kiss him like I’ve been wanting to for so long I don’t even know how long it’s been anymore.
But, I guess, I was about to get a reality check. Because things weren’t so easy and nothing ever happened exactly like I wanted it to, did it? I had to learn again not to be so damn naïve.
“Hello?” came Rachel’s voice through the phone. She sounded a bit like she had a cold.
“Hey, Rachel, it’s Finn,” I replied in a neutral voice.
“FINN HUDSON!” she almost screamed with joy. I winced and drew the phone away from my ear. “You’re calling from your home phone! Are you meaning to tell me that you’re home and didn’t even inform me until NOW??” She continued loudly. “Honestly, Finn, you should have told me before. I’m coming over right now!”
I gulped. Dammit. “Um… Rachel… the thing is… I really want - “
But Rachel interrupted me before I could say anything else. “I know, baby, I know. I really want to be with you, too. That’s why I’m coming over now to look after you!”
“Oh… but - “I said. Rachel had already hung up.
“…I don’t want to see you,” I muttered to the phone that would not reply.
Turning my head to look at Kurt, I grimaced at him. Judging by his expression I knew that he had already understood what had happened.
“She’s coming over then?” Kurt asks me quietly, looking a little disappointed.
“Sorry,” I mumble, “you know how she is… she wouldn’t let me talk.”
Kurt groaned, but smiled understandingly at me and nodded quietly.
I look at him, wishing that I didn’t have to break up with Rachel before I could kiss him. But I knew how much cheating hurt so I didn’t want to inflict that on someone that I did care about as a friend.
Sighing, I give a little shrug and said softy, “don’t worry, it’ll be over soon. Besides, it’s probably better this way, anyway. Face to face.” But it was certainly going to be a lot harder to face it.
I lean back into my pillows and stare at Kurt, unable to draw my eyes away from his. He really was so lovely, all soft, creamy skin and those lips…. I suck in a breath, trying to draw my mind away from how deeply I wanted to kiss them, wanted to know how they’d feel against mine.
Kurt stared back at me, his eyes glittering prettily. He kept on licking his lips and every now and then his eyes would flick down to my lips. Every time he did that, my heart leapt over and over.
It might seem strange, but us just staring at each other for 15 minutes while we waited for Rachel to bombard herself into my room was more comfortable than I would have expected. He was nice to look at and he didn’t seem to mind that we were playing some kind of staring game. It was nice to just be appreciated by just doing nothing.
But the nothing didn’t last long because before we knew it (time really does fly, you know), there was a knock on the door and Rachel poked her head in and looked at me with a wide, happy smile on her face. Then she walked in, closed the door and slowly came and sat by my bed and gave me a kiss on the lips and leant her head down so that it was resting on my chest.
Oh damn.
What’s going to happen when she notices Kurt is here?
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Rachel walked in and I just wanted her to leave. Why did she have to come and see her now? When everything was going so well between Finn and I? I know that I’m being a little selfish here, but seriously, why did she have to be so difficult? She’d had had her chance with Finn and this was finally mine.
Watching her I can tell that it’s because she truly loves Finn as much as I do, but as soon as her eyes flicker open and make their way over to look at me, she jumps up quickly and points at me accusingly, the other hand on her hip. This makes it seem more like Finn is a possession to her, a thing just there for her to say “ha, I’m a star and I’m dating the Quarterback.”
“What is he doing here?” She screeched loudly, staring at me but talking to Finn like I wasn’t even here.
Before Finn could reply I stood up, struck my “f-off bitch” pose and snapped, “I’m Finn’s friend and I’m here to look after him.”
Rachel rolled her eyes. “Why would you be looking after him when he has me?” She asked crossing her arms.
I glanced swiftly at Finn before opening my mouth to speak.
But Finn shook his head. “It’s okay, Kurt,” he said, quietly. “Rachel,” he continued, looking at her, “sit down, please.” He pats the spot on his bed beside him and Rachel obediently sits down, smirking at me as if she’d one at something.
I smiled grimly back at her and sat back down on the end of Finn’s bed, settling back to watch the proceedings in front of me. My heart was beating fast as I waited to find out how Finn was going to break the news to Rachel and if he was even really going to do it. I believed him that he would, but still, the vast realness of it actually happening right in front of my eyes was something I had never expected would ever happen in a million years.
Finn was looking at Rachel, or rather his head was directed at her and his eyes were downcast looking at hands. He was playing with his fingers nervously and couldn’t seem to get any words out.
“Finn?” Rachel asked, reaching over and placing her hand on his hand. “What’s wrong, sweetie?” she asked, sounding so sickingly loving that I almost vomited. Gee, I really hope I don’t sound like that when I talk to Finn.
When Finn still didn’t reply and was still looking gloomily down at his hands, Rachel opened her mouth again. “Come on, Finn… you can talk to me, right? Anything you have to say to me just say it… please… I want to help and you know how good I am at helping people.”
I scoffed under my breath but Rachel ignored me and still Finn said nothing. Well, this was going to be torture.
Rachel sighed and when she spoke again she sounded a little hysterical. “Please, Finn, just talk to me! What’s happened? Has something happened? Did I do something wrong? It’s not anything to do with Jesse or Puck is it? Because I told you, I don’t feel attraction to them in any way, not anymore. You’re the only thing that matters to me now. Well, you were always the only thing that mattered to me; I was just a little silly back then, wasn’t I? Omg… have you done something silly too? Did you cheat on me?! Oh god, just tell me! Tell me!” She said this all very fast and all of a sudden, Finn looked up at her and finally opened his mouth to speak.
“I didn’t cheat on you Rachel,” Finn said clearly, “but I’m sorry… I… don’t… I don’t love you… anymore.”
Rachel’s hands flew up to her mouth and even though I couldn’t see her face, I could picture the look of shock that was on her face. And it sort of made me feel sorry for her. A little.
“Why?” Rachel whispered.
I quickly looked at Finn and my heart sped up faster. He glanced over at me, watching me for a moment and turning a shade of deep red before he replied to Rachel’s question without even looking at her. He was just looking at me.
“I love Kurt,” he said, clearly and right at that moment I wanted to leap up and kiss his face off but Rachel was in the way and before I could do anything but smile at him broadly, Rachel was talking.
“That’s a really cruel joke, Finn,” she snapped at Finn angrily. “Are you really that heartless that you’d make that excuse? I mean, you can break my heart but don’t break Kurt’s as well!” She jumped up and crossed her arms, glaring at Finn judging by the horror on Finn’s face.
I stared at Rachel’s head in surprise; if there was ever a Rachel Berry reaction to the fact that Finn loves me, this wasn’t what I’d been expecting at all. I mean, I would have thought that she’d laugh or at least burst into tears or maybe even slap Finn across the face and then slap me for good measure. But instead here she was, my long-going rival, standing up for me because she thought that Finn was making it all up.
I glanced at Finn who was making goldfish faces, his eyes wide, and stood up to go and stand between the two of them. I looked at Rachel and reached over to put a hand on her arm.
“Even though the whole Finn loving me part is pretty new to me,” I said to her, letting my eyes look at Finn for a brief moment, “Finn’s not lying Rachel. This isn’t some joke.”
Finn breathed out a sigh of relief (it occurred to me then that Finn might have believed that I’d actually thought that what Rachel had said was the truth) and Rachel looked at me, her expression kind of blank.
“Really?” She whispered. “Finn…. You… love…” she mumbled, staring into my eyes as if they held all of the answers.
I nodded, unable to speak and her arms fell down at her sides. An “oh” dropped out of her mouth softly and she slowly floated down to sit on the bed, her hands rising to clench at her stomach.
“Rachel…are you okay?” Finn mumbled, worriedly.
She shook her head, not looking at him. “I feel… a bit sick...overwhelmed I guess…”
There was a silence for a moment as Finn and I had no idea what to say. Eventually I opened my mouth, “I’ll go and get you some water” I said, before leaving the room without another word.
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I felt terrible. I mean, I’d expected a rather emotional response from Rachel, but I hadn’t meant to make her feel sick. That sucked.
After Kurt went and got some water, it was quiet for a moment, the only sound being Rachel sniffing and hiccoughing.
I was pretty sure that that meant she’d started to cry, but I didn’t really know what to do about that. I couldn’t really reach over or sling my arm around her shoulder because of my injuries and I wasn’t sure if that would have helped anyway.
So instead, after a moment, I just had to open my mouth and talk. Get it all out there. That was the best I could do.
“Rachel… I’m really sorry about this… I didn’t mean for it to happen… you and me, we’ve really been something special but I guess…” I paused for a moment as Rachel sniffled a little loudly but I could tell that she was listening closely. “… I guess we just… weren’t meant to last.” I sighed. “I don’t know when I started liking Kurt… but all of a sudden… I just couldn’t get him out of my mind… it was kind of like when I was dating Quinn and I was always thinking about you… but this time it was even scarier because you know… who would ever have expected that I’d fall for a guy… not to mention my step-brother, which is kind of gross I guess but…I guess it was so different this time… so unbelievable… that I kind of feel like Kurt’s the one I…”
I stopped talking for a moment, shaking my head because I was probably saying too much that Rachel didn’t want to hear. She’d stopped sniffling now, but I could see gushes of tears leaking out of her eyes.
“Rachel, look at me,” I said, gently, reaching my hand out as far as I could towards her. I waited for a moment until she slowly lifted her head and looked at me, her eyes blurry with tears.
“Rachel,” I said, sighing, “I really am sorry… do you think you can forgive me? I really want to be friends still because… you’ve taught me a lot and you’re still really important.”
She stared at me for a moment before nodding slightly and looking away. I’d never seen Rachel lost for words before; it was kind of unnerving. (See, I told you Rachel taught me a lot of things, especially about big words.)
At that moment Kurt opened the door and came in with a glass of water. He glanced at me looking concerned before passing the glass to Rachel.
She took it, had a sip and mumbled, “thanks, Kurt.”
“No problem,” Kurt said, “I just couldn’t stand having your throat ruined from all of this when we all know you need it to become a star.”
Rachel smiled at him, she actually smiled, and wiped at a tear crawling down her cheek. Then she sighed and looked over at me.
“Thanks for being honest with me, Finn,” she said, a little shaky. “We… we should talk again soon… but I need to be alone right now,” she looked away from me and stood up.
“Are you going to be okay?” I asked, quietly.
She shrugged. “Eventually,” she said, smiling sadly, before putting a hand up as a goodbye and quickly leaving the room.
I looked at the door for a moment as it shut behind her and I could hear her footsteps as she left, then the sound of my mother’s voice and then the front door clicked shut.
I looked then at Kurt, who was staring at me. A lot of unspoken things seemed to wave between us; I knew I was feeling pretty terrible about Rachel and could tell that Kurt was too but there was nothing we could do about that.
“Well,” I sighed, patting the spot beside me on the bed for him to sit down, “that could have been so much worse.”
Author: finurtchel
Rating: R (mainly to keep the whole story together as later chapters are the R parts)
Spoilers: none in this chapter, really. Maybe Special Education but barely, epecially seeing as I don't really know exactly when this is taking place.
Warnings: lots of Rachel, and it's probably not as good as the other chapters
Disclaimer: I do not own Glee.
Summary: Finn is involved in a fender-bender while driving Kurt's car.
Authors Comments: I am so sorry that its been over a month since my last update! I won't bore you with excuses though, but I do feel like my writing in this is a little.... well... not good. So hope you like it anyway and hope it was worth the wait. If you review lots than maybe I'll write the next chapter, wherein Finn and Kurt will share their first kiss, a lot sooner! Happy reading! Oh, and sorry about the different layout. I finally figured out how to use the indent thing.... =P
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I sit awkwardly on my bed, the phone pressed to my ear, waiting to hear the shrill voice of Rachel Berry. I’m not a heartless person; obviously I’m not looking forward to breaking Rachel’s heart but the pleased look on Kurt’s face is sort of making me unable to feel anything but happiness.
And anyway, this was going to be easy wasn’t it? All I had to say was: “Sorry, Rachel, but we can’t be together anymore because I love Kurt now” and then she’d say something like “oh, I’m sorry about that, Finn, but I’m really happy for you. I hope we can still be friends!” And then I’d smile and say “of course!” and she’d laugh happily and then we’d hang up.
And then I’ll reach over grab Kurt and kiss him like I’ve been wanting to for so long I don’t even know how long it’s been anymore.
But, I guess, I was about to get a reality check. Because things weren’t so easy and nothing ever happened exactly like I wanted it to, did it? I had to learn again not to be so damn naïve.
“Hello?” came Rachel’s voice through the phone. She sounded a bit like she had a cold.
“Hey, Rachel, it’s Finn,” I replied in a neutral voice.
“FINN HUDSON!” she almost screamed with joy. I winced and drew the phone away from my ear. “You’re calling from your home phone! Are you meaning to tell me that you’re home and didn’t even inform me until NOW??” She continued loudly. “Honestly, Finn, you should have told me before. I’m coming over right now!”
I gulped. Dammit. “Um… Rachel… the thing is… I really want - “
But Rachel interrupted me before I could say anything else. “I know, baby, I know. I really want to be with you, too. That’s why I’m coming over now to look after you!”
“Oh… but - “I said. Rachel had already hung up.
“…I don’t want to see you,” I muttered to the phone that would not reply.
Turning my head to look at Kurt, I grimaced at him. Judging by his expression I knew that he had already understood what had happened.
“She’s coming over then?” Kurt asks me quietly, looking a little disappointed.
“Sorry,” I mumble, “you know how she is… she wouldn’t let me talk.”
Kurt groaned, but smiled understandingly at me and nodded quietly.
I look at him, wishing that I didn’t have to break up with Rachel before I could kiss him. But I knew how much cheating hurt so I didn’t want to inflict that on someone that I did care about as a friend.
Sighing, I give a little shrug and said softy, “don’t worry, it’ll be over soon. Besides, it’s probably better this way, anyway. Face to face.” But it was certainly going to be a lot harder to face it.
I lean back into my pillows and stare at Kurt, unable to draw my eyes away from his. He really was so lovely, all soft, creamy skin and those lips…. I suck in a breath, trying to draw my mind away from how deeply I wanted to kiss them, wanted to know how they’d feel against mine.
Kurt stared back at me, his eyes glittering prettily. He kept on licking his lips and every now and then his eyes would flick down to my lips. Every time he did that, my heart leapt over and over.
It might seem strange, but us just staring at each other for 15 minutes while we waited for Rachel to bombard herself into my room was more comfortable than I would have expected. He was nice to look at and he didn’t seem to mind that we were playing some kind of staring game. It was nice to just be appreciated by just doing nothing.
But the nothing didn’t last long because before we knew it (time really does fly, you know), there was a knock on the door and Rachel poked her head in and looked at me with a wide, happy smile on her face. Then she walked in, closed the door and slowly came and sat by my bed and gave me a kiss on the lips and leant her head down so that it was resting on my chest.
Oh damn.
What’s going to happen when she notices Kurt is here?
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Rachel walked in and I just wanted her to leave. Why did she have to come and see her now? When everything was going so well between Finn and I? I know that I’m being a little selfish here, but seriously, why did she have to be so difficult? She’d had had her chance with Finn and this was finally mine.
Watching her I can tell that it’s because she truly loves Finn as much as I do, but as soon as her eyes flicker open and make their way over to look at me, she jumps up quickly and points at me accusingly, the other hand on her hip. This makes it seem more like Finn is a possession to her, a thing just there for her to say “ha, I’m a star and I’m dating the Quarterback.”
“What is he doing here?” She screeched loudly, staring at me but talking to Finn like I wasn’t even here.
Before Finn could reply I stood up, struck my “f-off bitch” pose and snapped, “I’m Finn’s friend and I’m here to look after him.”
Rachel rolled her eyes. “Why would you be looking after him when he has me?” She asked crossing her arms.
I glanced swiftly at Finn before opening my mouth to speak.
But Finn shook his head. “It’s okay, Kurt,” he said, quietly. “Rachel,” he continued, looking at her, “sit down, please.” He pats the spot on his bed beside him and Rachel obediently sits down, smirking at me as if she’d one at something.
I smiled grimly back at her and sat back down on the end of Finn’s bed, settling back to watch the proceedings in front of me. My heart was beating fast as I waited to find out how Finn was going to break the news to Rachel and if he was even really going to do it. I believed him that he would, but still, the vast realness of it actually happening right in front of my eyes was something I had never expected would ever happen in a million years.
Finn was looking at Rachel, or rather his head was directed at her and his eyes were downcast looking at hands. He was playing with his fingers nervously and couldn’t seem to get any words out.
“Finn?” Rachel asked, reaching over and placing her hand on his hand. “What’s wrong, sweetie?” she asked, sounding so sickingly loving that I almost vomited. Gee, I really hope I don’t sound like that when I talk to Finn.
When Finn still didn’t reply and was still looking gloomily down at his hands, Rachel opened her mouth again. “Come on, Finn… you can talk to me, right? Anything you have to say to me just say it… please… I want to help and you know how good I am at helping people.”
I scoffed under my breath but Rachel ignored me and still Finn said nothing. Well, this was going to be torture.
Rachel sighed and when she spoke again she sounded a little hysterical. “Please, Finn, just talk to me! What’s happened? Has something happened? Did I do something wrong? It’s not anything to do with Jesse or Puck is it? Because I told you, I don’t feel attraction to them in any way, not anymore. You’re the only thing that matters to me now. Well, you were always the only thing that mattered to me; I was just a little silly back then, wasn’t I? Omg… have you done something silly too? Did you cheat on me?! Oh god, just tell me! Tell me!” She said this all very fast and all of a sudden, Finn looked up at her and finally opened his mouth to speak.
“I didn’t cheat on you Rachel,” Finn said clearly, “but I’m sorry… I… don’t… I don’t love you… anymore.”
Rachel’s hands flew up to her mouth and even though I couldn’t see her face, I could picture the look of shock that was on her face. And it sort of made me feel sorry for her. A little.
“Why?” Rachel whispered.
I quickly looked at Finn and my heart sped up faster. He glanced over at me, watching me for a moment and turning a shade of deep red before he replied to Rachel’s question without even looking at her. He was just looking at me.
“I love Kurt,” he said, clearly and right at that moment I wanted to leap up and kiss his face off but Rachel was in the way and before I could do anything but smile at him broadly, Rachel was talking.
“That’s a really cruel joke, Finn,” she snapped at Finn angrily. “Are you really that heartless that you’d make that excuse? I mean, you can break my heart but don’t break Kurt’s as well!” She jumped up and crossed her arms, glaring at Finn judging by the horror on Finn’s face.
I stared at Rachel’s head in surprise; if there was ever a Rachel Berry reaction to the fact that Finn loves me, this wasn’t what I’d been expecting at all. I mean, I would have thought that she’d laugh or at least burst into tears or maybe even slap Finn across the face and then slap me for good measure. But instead here she was, my long-going rival, standing up for me because she thought that Finn was making it all up.
I glanced at Finn who was making goldfish faces, his eyes wide, and stood up to go and stand between the two of them. I looked at Rachel and reached over to put a hand on her arm.
“Even though the whole Finn loving me part is pretty new to me,” I said to her, letting my eyes look at Finn for a brief moment, “Finn’s not lying Rachel. This isn’t some joke.”
Finn breathed out a sigh of relief (it occurred to me then that Finn might have believed that I’d actually thought that what Rachel had said was the truth) and Rachel looked at me, her expression kind of blank.
“Really?” She whispered. “Finn…. You… love…” she mumbled, staring into my eyes as if they held all of the answers.
I nodded, unable to speak and her arms fell down at her sides. An “oh” dropped out of her mouth softly and she slowly floated down to sit on the bed, her hands rising to clench at her stomach.
“Rachel…are you okay?” Finn mumbled, worriedly.
She shook her head, not looking at him. “I feel… a bit sick...overwhelmed I guess…”
There was a silence for a moment as Finn and I had no idea what to say. Eventually I opened my mouth, “I’ll go and get you some water” I said, before leaving the room without another word.
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I felt terrible. I mean, I’d expected a rather emotional response from Rachel, but I hadn’t meant to make her feel sick. That sucked.
After Kurt went and got some water, it was quiet for a moment, the only sound being Rachel sniffing and hiccoughing.
I was pretty sure that that meant she’d started to cry, but I didn’t really know what to do about that. I couldn’t really reach over or sling my arm around her shoulder because of my injuries and I wasn’t sure if that would have helped anyway.
So instead, after a moment, I just had to open my mouth and talk. Get it all out there. That was the best I could do.
“Rachel… I’m really sorry about this… I didn’t mean for it to happen… you and me, we’ve really been something special but I guess…” I paused for a moment as Rachel sniffled a little loudly but I could tell that she was listening closely. “… I guess we just… weren’t meant to last.” I sighed. “I don’t know when I started liking Kurt… but all of a sudden… I just couldn’t get him out of my mind… it was kind of like when I was dating Quinn and I was always thinking about you… but this time it was even scarier because you know… who would ever have expected that I’d fall for a guy… not to mention my step-brother, which is kind of gross I guess but…I guess it was so different this time… so unbelievable… that I kind of feel like Kurt’s the one I…”
I stopped talking for a moment, shaking my head because I was probably saying too much that Rachel didn’t want to hear. She’d stopped sniffling now, but I could see gushes of tears leaking out of her eyes.
“Rachel, look at me,” I said, gently, reaching my hand out as far as I could towards her. I waited for a moment until she slowly lifted her head and looked at me, her eyes blurry with tears.
“Rachel,” I said, sighing, “I really am sorry… do you think you can forgive me? I really want to be friends still because… you’ve taught me a lot and you’re still really important.”
She stared at me for a moment before nodding slightly and looking away. I’d never seen Rachel lost for words before; it was kind of unnerving. (See, I told you Rachel taught me a lot of things, especially about big words.)
At that moment Kurt opened the door and came in with a glass of water. He glanced at me looking concerned before passing the glass to Rachel.
She took it, had a sip and mumbled, “thanks, Kurt.”
“No problem,” Kurt said, “I just couldn’t stand having your throat ruined from all of this when we all know you need it to become a star.”
Rachel smiled at him, she actually smiled, and wiped at a tear crawling down her cheek. Then she sighed and looked over at me.
“Thanks for being honest with me, Finn,” she said, a little shaky. “We… we should talk again soon… but I need to be alone right now,” she looked away from me and stood up.
“Are you going to be okay?” I asked, quietly.
She shrugged. “Eventually,” she said, smiling sadly, before putting a hand up as a goodbye and quickly leaving the room.
I looked at the door for a moment as it shut behind her and I could hear her footsteps as she left, then the sound of my mother’s voice and then the front door clicked shut.
I looked then at Kurt, who was staring at me. A lot of unspoken things seemed to wave between us; I knew I was feeling pretty terrible about Rachel and could tell that Kurt was too but there was nothing we could do about that.
“Well,” I sighed, patting the spot beside me on the bed for him to sit down, “that could have been so much worse.”