a huge loss.

[finstergrrrl]

softanimal, you were such a vast and powerful presence here. tonight i heard you left us for good. i can't stop crying. at the thought of you, scared and in pain. at the thought of me, thinking i had done all i could, when in retrospect i could have done so much more. i'm sorry i failed you. i'm sorry everything failed you in the end. i wish i could offer you more than broken apologies. i'm so, so sorry, and i don't think there are enough stars in the universe to count all the things everyone will miss about you. please be finally at peace.

for my part, i vow to do better for someone else, because i can no longer do better for you.