May 01, 2007 20:06
ive been very busy:-( very very busy, in fact, i should be working right now, but im taking a not well deserved break.
so it seems like i have a big project for every single class. it sucks. Ha, in english i have two projects:-(:-( (double sad face)
i cant wait until summer. right now everything feels like its falling apart, its felt like everything is falling apart since i moved really. i just want it to go back to the way it was. i hope i can spend most of my summer in ny. but im not sure if thats possible or my parents will let me. itd be so nice to hang out at glenn hills again though, and just just spend lazy days with my closest friends just walking, talking doing whatever we feel like.
school needs to just go away and then time should just stop once summer starts.
the longer i stay here the worse it feels. i dont feel at home here, ny feels like home, but not being there makes it less and less like home until ill just feel homeless and lonely all the time. yeah, im pathetic i know.
soccer in Indianapolis is going better though. the coach talked to me one day after a really bad practice and since then ive been working really hard. Ha, i played my best games while i had a cold.
btw im skipping practice today, i am very sick and feel pretty bad. yesterday when i got home from school i had the worst headache and was freezing cold (except for my forehead). i slept all day, woke up at like 2AM, was hungry but couldnt eat because my throat hurt so i just got something to drink. but it was really strange, i was sweating now, and i felt like i had just run 5 miles, my legs were sore and aching. but i felt much better this morning which isnt saying much (i still feel pretty bad) but i went to school anyway. i needed to, i couldnt afford to fall behind on work.
i think ive been sick for over a week, like, ive had a chronic cough, runny nose and sore throat for the longest time. its prolly cause i get no rest, im too busy
but in other news, im gonna fail my ap exams, hooray