This isn't meant to last, this is for right now

May 08, 2007 19:30

You always knew this wasn't permanent. This was transient at best. It was the way it was always going to be. But I guess knowing doesn't stop the pain, does it?

I slept in your bed that last night to say good bye. I know you thought it out of character, I'd been so flighty recently and you were so surprised, so happy to find me there once more. You stroked me and I curled up next to you, but when you came home from work that day I was long gone.

Despite my white belly, I'm a black cat and the night belongs to me. I'm not a tabby content to rule nothing but the couch. I'm not white and petrified of the outdoors. Nor am I pure-breed and terrified of the horrible "out there". Born in a parking lot and with asphalt running through my veins, I always knew one day I'd have to go. I always knew and so did you.

Thank you for the warmth, the kindness and the love. Thank you for the patience and the care. Thank you for taking a chance on me when nobody else would. I hope you know the time we shared is as special to me as it is to you.

I'm sorry I hurt you. If I could have avoided it I would have, but sometimes we do things that hurt others because to not do them hurts us too much. Can you understand?

I hope we see each other again, but for now this is

goodbye.
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