Nov 28, 2004 03:34
How long has it been since I wrote anything that mattered to me? Lately it seems almost as though I am neglecting you. I read from you and learn and yet I contribute nothing. My hopes, dreams and fears are no longer voiced upon your pages. My words no longer read in this medium. I listen to all of you with such rapt attention, for you are the most gifted people I have never known. Such potential and grace, wisdom and yet always this underlying doubt among you. You seem so afraid of yourselves that I am scared, for you are the most amazing people, and I love to read your thoughts. I wish that I could contribute more to this discourse.
I have such a wonderful friends list:
The idealist, graceful, determined and destined for greatness, yet somehow so vulnerable and damaged by this world,
The writer, with such flair and intrigue in her every post that my own aspirations become shadoed dreams of ineptitude
The resentful bride, in who I see the carefree stupidity that life is made of.
You all give so much to me and I find myself in total awe of all of you. Such eloquence and poetic grace, if you can't succeed in this world, then what hope could I have. Your constant self critique has been an inspiration to me to try much harder than I would have if you did not grace the web page of my life with your musings. And while you would not recognise me on the street you have changed the course of my life with your words. Failure will never be yours to savour as you have succeeded in my life and undoubtedly countless others, though you may go unrecognised you will not go unnoticed.
So thank you, for allowing me to evolve through your voices.