Hi! I know that you were probably talking to emily_shore back there in xf_book_club. She gets around LJ a bit more, and says many smart things. I am very fond of her myself. I had to come to see your journal, anyway. Then I saw the story.
I think you are being rather hard on yourself when you say this is not successful. It is not a perfect story, but then they rarely are. I didn't even know how to turn on the computer back in the day, when so much of the writing that we now call "classic" was being written. I am certain that if I had, I would have been utterly intimidated, lurked and never said a word. I certainly wouldn't have tried to write anything myself.
I didn't want to admit even to myself at the time how much of a high-wire act writing felt like to me and when my friends came in with all kinds of corrections and opinions -- even though they were solicited and almost always correct in what they said, particularly about structure and inauthenticity -- it started to interfere with my enjoyment of the process.I believe you. I hope that eight years
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It's absolutely all right to comment, particularly when you say such nice things. I loved the idea of Life During Wartime and we once got almost all the people who wanted to write in the universe in the same room but managed to miss Maria Nicole by half an hour in San Francisco. (The world might have exploded anyway.) I am glad it worked for you anyway. It was Cofax's universe.
Avebury is fabulous; it's spiritual and spooky in a way that Stonehenge just isn't. If you're ever in England, I'd say go there rather than Stonehenge. See Stonehenge from the A303 and don't worry about stopping ;) Anyway, I must've read about a million post-eps for All Things but I only read a few about where Mulder was and several of those seemed to think that Stonehenge was in the lobby of Heathrow Airport.
(And yes, tie-dye T-shirts are ever present even then but I think I was thinking more of my university days a decade later, when we all had them.)
Oh, England! Mulder in England! I have been wanting to read this story ever since the first time that I heard David Duchovny mispronounce "Avebury." While I'm American myself, I am doing a degree at Oxford and I've been to Avebury more times than I can count. I'm glad you wrote this so that I don't have to. :)
I hope you don't mind if I friend you. I have to do some work now but I will come back and offer some substantive comments on the story later...
Hello. I hope the story filled the gap for you, or you may want to write another which is more authentic!
Please feel free to friend if you'd still like to. I don't log onto this journal much, as you can tell by the woeful amount of time it has taken me to reply, but I am hoping to use it a little bit more this year.
i read this fic a while back, before i knew this you and Marasmus-you were one and the same. i've been meaning to comment on it since. you say you don't/didn't feel as if it were up to scratch. funnily enough, this fic is the one that feels the most natural to me, of all your fics. it's the one that feels the most in character, to me. however it doesn't have that... hmm. well, as i've said, all your fics feel noticably distinct to me and very self-supporting, self-completeing. except this one, which feels very much to be a little part of the characters' story - a little chip off of what's already there. it's odd to hear you talking about 'authenticity' in writing, because for me this story is most authentic as fanfic because it absorbs effortlessly into the canon of what it was derived from. but perhaps it is less 'authentic' simply as its own story - as writing
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Hello. To come to your second point first, I think that it's definitely a case of 'any writing comes first'. I start so much and finish so little, and a lot of that is about writing something, hitting a difficulty and thinking "that is all rubbish". Then I lose heart and momentum.
You're right that I am not that interested in post-eps. I never thought I was that good at writing emotions and confessionals without story of my own to hang it off. Some people are good at it, but I am not. Also, there's the fact that back then, by the time I had seen the episodes fifty post-eps had already been written.
I think perhaps we should write as if no one is reading. Are you a good editor?
If you are, you can uncover the story you wanted to tell in that process, like an archaeologist brushing away flecks of mud from an interesting artefact. If you're not, a good beta can help. But personally, I need to get to the stage of having something finished that I am reasonably happy with because if I invite comment too early it doesn't work for me.K
if only. i've always had an inordinate sense of the intergiry of stories. which isn't to say i don't see the flaws, so much as that i see the flaws the way a person sees the flaws in a child's face. people who can edit their story into something wonderful amaze me. once a story is written to the end, for me, the idea of changing anything the least bit substantial is unthinkable. like breaking bones, rethreading tendons - lopping off a sixth finger.
it makes me a weak(er) writer, but i can live with that.
Some people are good at it, but I am not.
frankly, i think that probably makes you a stronger writer, in your own right. your stories have a kind of durability to them that more canon reliant fanfic tends to lack, even when it is exqusite.
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I think you are being rather hard on yourself when you say this is not successful. It is not a perfect story, but then they rarely are. I didn't even know how to turn on the computer back in the day, when so much of the writing that we now call "classic" was being written. I am certain that if I had, I would have been utterly intimidated, lurked and never said a word. I certainly wouldn't have tried to write anything myself.
I didn't want to admit even to myself at the time how much of a high-wire act writing felt like to me and when my friends came in with all kinds of corrections and opinions -- even though they were solicited and almost always correct in what they said, particularly about structure and inauthenticity -- it started to interfere with my enjoyment of the process.I believe you. I hope that eight years ( ... )
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Avebury is fabulous; it's spiritual and spooky in a way that Stonehenge just isn't. If you're ever in England, I'd say go there rather than Stonehenge. See Stonehenge from the A303 and don't worry about stopping ;) Anyway, I must've read about a million post-eps for All Things but I only read a few about where Mulder was and several of those seemed to think that Stonehenge was in the lobby of Heathrow Airport.
(And yes, tie-dye T-shirts are ever present even then but I think I was thinking more of my university days a decade later, when we all had them.)
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I hope you don't mind if I friend you. I have to do some work now but I will come back and offer some substantive comments on the story later...
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Please feel free to friend if you'd still like to. I don't log onto this journal much, as you can tell by the woeful amount of time it has taken me to reply, but I am hoping to use it a little bit more this year.
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You're right that I am not that interested in post-eps. I never thought I was that good at writing emotions and confessionals without story of my own to hang it off. Some people are good at it, but I am not. Also, there's the fact that back then, by the time I had seen the episodes fifty post-eps had already been written.
I think perhaps we should write as if no one is reading. Are you a good editor?
If you are, you can uncover the story you wanted to tell in that process, like an archaeologist brushing away flecks of mud from an interesting artefact. If you're not, a good beta can help. But personally, I need to get to the stage of having something finished that I am reasonably happy with because if I invite comment too early it doesn't work for me.K
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if only. i've always had an inordinate sense of the intergiry of stories. which isn't to say i don't see the flaws, so much as that i see the flaws the way a person sees the flaws in a child's face. people who can edit their story into something wonderful amaze me. once a story is written to the end, for me, the idea of changing anything the least bit substantial is unthinkable. like breaking bones, rethreading tendons - lopping off a sixth finger.
it makes me a weak(er) writer, but i can live with that.
Some people are good at it, but I am not.
frankly, i think that probably makes you a stronger writer, in your own right. your stories have a kind of durability to them that more canon reliant fanfic tends to lack, even when it is exqusite.
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