►017. how it's never real, how you're never you

[fingeredheart]

Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue

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[anonymous]

it's not easy and it doesn't work and I just feel even more lonely than before and it hurts more because everybody around seems to have gotten used to their new life already but me, and I don't know why.

I don't know what year of school you're in, anon, but this pretty much sums up the friendship aspect of my college experience so far. I feel like I'm the only student in my year who hasn't made a bunch of new BFF's after just two months of being at school. (I know that can't be true, but it feels like it is.) Is it that I'm not trying hard enough, or is there something wrong with me? I'm neither an unfriendly person nor hard to get along with, at least IMO, so I'm kind of at a loss here. I just want a few people I can call up to hang out around campus with, or eat dinner with a few times a week, so that I won't always be alone then. I don't mind eating breakfast or lunch alone because the dining halls aren't so crowded then, but having dinner by myself almost every night and pretending to be okay with that is the worst. I want to stop crying in my dorm every other night from feeling so lonely and helpless.

Sorry, that got a little long, but I hope things look up for you soon. ♥ Just know that you're not the only one who feels the way you do.