Affirmation
I am in love with him and that's okay. There is not enough love in the world so let yourself love. Loving feels even better than being loved so just keep on loving no matter what. Love him as selflessly and as selfishly as you can. Love his hair and his eyes and his heart and his perpetually dirty sheets and cheap whiskey and lovely music. Love his silhouette and the contours of his face and his soft murmurs. Love your dreams of him- together at last in new york- beautiful and poor and in love. Love your children and your lonely nights missing him. Bathe in the blue of his eyes and the milk of his skin. Wrap yourself in his strong arms and his smoky male scent. Shower yourself in his moans and his whispered praises. Love him with all the blood your heart can give up. Love him every night and every day- love him until it becomes so natural, so much like your own pulse, that you can't live not loving him. Love him until you've lived a thousand lives and died a thousand tiny deaths. Love him in measures of minutes and eons. Love him until he becomes the air you breathe and the water you drink. Love each atom of him as though it were his whole self. Love as though it were the only thing the world had left to offer and then, maybe then, you will love someone else.