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i was driving home tonight and saw three guys riding bikes down edgewood- one on this enormous red bike, like 3 times the size of a normal bike. it was so utterly random that i'm nearly convinced i've begun hallucinating, but i think (hope?) not. i am so beyond stressed about my thesis. truly beyond stressed, which is kind of nice as im past that cold sweat panicky stage and into the more accepting- shut down brain and all outside stimuli and just type til your head implodes stage, at which time i briefly emerge from my cocoon to eat, bathe, go to class, do other homework, go to work, and other brilliantly unfun and necessary pursuits. I had dinner with friends and have some chill out time tonight, which i know is probably a good thing, but i can't help but think that every moment that i am not actively thesising (yes its a verb now) is not the best use of my time. i really wish that sleep were optional. it takes up so much time! i cannot wait until all of this is over- for better or worse, so long as it is done. i expect i will either sleep for days or run around on an adrenalin and alcohol fueled high for days- for possibly both in succession. i've already wasted too much time writing this, so back to biting the bullet *chomp* signing off