christmas blues
I have a feeling its going to be a crappy christmas this year. We have a tree and all but no one wants to decorate it and it's sort of depressing because they've left it up to me to decorate and I don't wanna do it alone. I'm putting it off. Maybe ill ask someone to help me decorate it i don't know, that's sort of a weird thing to ask someone. "Hey! Can you come over and decorate my christmas tree with me because my family is too lazy and annoying to do it and im a baby and can't do it alone?" It's just not the same anymore.. anything. All my family has moved this year so we're not getting together or anything or exchanging gifts. I'll probably be home with my mom christmas eve while my brothers out and i bet we'll wind up having to order annas or something because i have a feeling she wont cook and ill be bored out of my mind. I miss the Christmas' when everyone would go to my grandmas on christmas eve and have lobster and sit at the huge long table and when we got home at like 11, id sleep in my brothers room on the floor talking about what we thought santa was bringing. Christmas is about being with family and it just seems everyone else is going to have somewhere to go and celebrate. I really cant wait until christmas is over.