it's weird
I'm assuming this happens because things have to change. But it's so weird. Like - there's no regret involved with what I'm about to write down because I dont' feel it at all. But it's so odd how for years even you'll be so close to people - and all of a sudden it seems like you just don't have much to say anymore. And i mean with certain ones you'll always have them and they'll have you for the big things and that's okay. Because life's caught up with all of us.
But whatever it is - I like to think it's because we're all so busy participating now. And that in the past, on those days, we'll still be doing what we did. That's so hard to explain - my thought that say, a year ago right now that person - me, a year back, is doing exactly what I did. Constantly, infinitely. That we're all still singing and laughing and dancing just in another time, another sphere of reality.
You know for a long time, I'd always think to myself "I'll always have so and so" to comfort myself. WHich is fine. But what I've come to realize -- perhaps this has come with age -- you'll only always have yourself. Like it's not bad or negative but that's the one person you can trust. And it is easier to take comfort in that the more honest you become with yourself. It'sn ot that we don't need other people - we do, always. But I've realized you just can't wait for people. You just can't. You have to go after things as they are. And that being honest is one of the most important things I've ever learned.
I mean for all of you who I used to be so close to and we've all kind of moved on to other places in life, please know I'll always be there for you when you need it. And then I love you all very much.
But whatever it is - I like to think it's because we're all so busy participating now. And that in the past, on those days, we'll still be doing what we did. That's so hard to explain - my thought that say, a year ago right now that person - me, a year back, is doing exactly what I did. Constantly, infinitely. That we're all still singing and laughing and dancing just in another time, another sphere of reality.
You know for a long time, I'd always think to myself "I'll always have so and so" to comfort myself. WHich is fine. But what I've come to realize -- perhaps this has come with age -- you'll only always have yourself. Like it's not bad or negative but that's the one person you can trust. And it is easier to take comfort in that the more honest you become with yourself. It'sn ot that we don't need other people - we do, always. But I've realized you just can't wait for people. You just can't. You have to go after things as they are. And that being honest is one of the most important things I've ever learned.
I mean for all of you who I used to be so close to and we've all kind of moved on to other places in life, please know I'll always be there for you when you need it. And then I love you all very much.