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[findtara]

The new year, time with family, and choices to be made have left me in a reflective mood. I've been thinking about turning points in my life and how seemingly small decisions greatly impacted where and who I came to be now. Those choices seemed to lead me to good things, which gives me some confidence that surely I can trust myself to make some more good decisions now. Unfortunately, the Muncie job decided not to hire Jason, which was pretty disappointing because it would have been very convenient to move there just as our lease in ATL is ending, and its close proximity to KY. But, it's not so bad... maybe now we'll find a place with more sushi places =) Like I said, though, it is less convenient. Now it's very very unlikely we'll have figured out where we're going before our lease is up, so we'll have to move somewhere else temporarily. We could just extend our lease, but it's $1300 a month, way too much to pay without roommates. We're probably going to find an apartment in Lexington and pay month-to-month at the end of January. We're always going back to KY anyway, so at least there we'll be surrounded by friends and save ourselves a lot of driving time and gas money. We thought about Louisville, but it would be kinda weird if we ran into Jason's parents in the middle of the week somewhere in Louisville... we still haven't told them about the whole situation, to save them from having to worry about us. During one of our recent visits with them, Jason's dad looked proudly at him and said, "I don't have to worry about you," patting his back lovingly. Later he mentioned that moment reinforced his decision not to tell them, so they wouldn't worry. Even though it's strange to keep secrets from them, I have the same reluctance to tell them. In contrast, I very much wanted to share what was going on with my Dad and family... my Dad has always seemed confident that everything will work out and that I can handle whatever life throws at me... though I'm sure he's concerned about how things turn out, I'm also sure he's not anxious about it. Talking with him makes me worry less. It's very helpful =)

So I guess after we move I'll try to pick up some shifts at a CVS somewhere in Lexington. The Louisville job is apparently still a possibility... Jason talked to Joel, who works there, and they haven't started interviewing. It's kind of a weird hiring system. There's also a job opening in Fort Wayne, IN, a little farther from KY than Muncie. Who knows where we'll end up... I just hope we end up there soon!