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Usually, I have little annoyances in my life that I happily shrug off because overall life is so good. I'm feeling a little upside-down now, because I have real difficulty ahead that will impact this "overall life" that I'm rather unhappy about, but I have so many little things making me happy that I'm able to shrug it off. That said, I do have moments where I look into the near future and feel a mixture of disappointment and heartbreak. Best case senario: Jason gets a job within the next couple of months, and we move far away from everyone we know and love. Worst case: Jason can't find a new job in the next couple of months because everyone is on a hiring freeze or something like it, because the economy isn't great and if people don't have money they don't go to the doctor to find out they have cancer and don't go to Jason for treatment. In that case, I'll go ahead and get a job somewhere (haven't decided where yet...) as a PA, and I guess Jason will wait it out until a job opens up where we are (which could take a loooong time). That wouldn't be good for his career, but what else can we do? One month ago, I didn't worry about whether he would get a job or not, I figured it was just a matter of time and hoping for something close. But, jobs have been harder to find than they were when he first graduated, and I'm afraid that's worsening. So, now I'm worried.

But, on the bright side, I could easily make enough money that we would be fine. Plus, halloween is coming up very soon, which means I get to see everyone in KY and welcome JJ home from Iraq! I got my first paycheck today, which was a nice change from nothing =) Tomorrow Jason and I are eating at a Hibachi steakhouse nearby, then we're going rollerskating with our roommates =) And, when we eventually do move, I'll get to decorate a new place, and hopefully meet some new interesting people. It's helpful that Jason makes me so incredibly happy... gleeful at times =)