Dammit!

[findsomepeace]

Just saw Zao. Amazing! They were short a guitarist but pulled it out. I got lost coming back from Nashville with Stephen and Avivah with me. We finally made it home just now. i am tired. I am also sad, things aren't really going the way I had planned for them and it seems that only worse times are ahead. I saw Kari in the mall the other day, I had to leave cause I wanted to keep my space between us. But in that one glance of her at the mall, I had all these old memories and feelings come rushing back, and I thought I had fully gotten over it. The sad thing is that she was my best friend too and I don't really have anyone to share how it feels, like I know she doesn't like me or every want to see me again, and I am over us too, but that doesn't mean I still don't have sensitive feelings on the subject. I am also sad because of beer and other alcoholic beverages, they don't make any pain go away they just cause it, mostly to people around you. so boo you alcohol, boo you!
We'll I'm glad at least I can write down my thoughts and feelings even though no one will probably read them, but that doesn't mean I haven't addressed the problem.
Take care LJ, and goodnight!