depressed
I always feel depressed this time of year. fuck I wish that would change. I hate feeling all emotional like I have no control of my feelings. Had a crappy weekend, ended up crying myself to sleep on Saturday. Just over-thinking over-analyzing stupid shit that end the end doesn't even matter.
Run down of weekend:
Friday I dropped off Amber and went shopping for clothes, haven't done that in ooooo 6-8 months. I bought three shirts and a pair of fishnets, all in all $50 worth of clothes. this is the most I have spent on clothes in over a year. how fucking sad is that? After that, La Moyne picked me up, we went to Freedom Tattoo to give Rudy back some rings I found of his. (that are not inexpensive by the way) was doing the guy a favor actually going out of our way. it was a good thing cause Vino's ride crapped out on her. Well found out latter that my appearance caused drama shit with Heidi. Rudy was fine with it, actually said "thank you". Well anywho, made it out to the Church of Hate show in Tacoma, saw Kelly and Kat. it was good times besides the drunk that wouldn't give it up.
Saturday woke up late, ended up going snowboarding with Garrett. Ended early cause I was feeling like crud after falling, and I was just tired physically. Decided to go out to Wayne's, drama ensued. Left went to Sharkies, Justin didn't make me feel any better. so I had a shot two beers and walked home crying. I'm really starting to come into my own of who my friends are and aren't. I'm just going to move on.
Sunday woke up all puffy and feeling like crud from crying so much. La Moyne came over and we went out for Thai then to Vino's to watch the game. Ended up back at my place to watch movies.
I'm going to start deleting negative people in my life. People I call friends that I know are not. it's about time I do it. I need to start introducing more positive people in my life.
Run down of weekend:
Friday I dropped off Amber and went shopping for clothes, haven't done that in ooooo 6-8 months. I bought three shirts and a pair of fishnets, all in all $50 worth of clothes. this is the most I have spent on clothes in over a year. how fucking sad is that? After that, La Moyne picked me up, we went to Freedom Tattoo to give Rudy back some rings I found of his. (that are not inexpensive by the way) was doing the guy a favor actually going out of our way. it was a good thing cause Vino's ride crapped out on her. Well found out latter that my appearance caused drama shit with Heidi. Rudy was fine with it, actually said "thank you". Well anywho, made it out to the Church of Hate show in Tacoma, saw Kelly and Kat. it was good times besides the drunk that wouldn't give it up.
Saturday woke up late, ended up going snowboarding with Garrett. Ended early cause I was feeling like crud after falling, and I was just tired physically. Decided to go out to Wayne's, drama ensued. Left went to Sharkies, Justin didn't make me feel any better. so I had a shot two beers and walked home crying. I'm really starting to come into my own of who my friends are and aren't. I'm just going to move on.
Sunday woke up all puffy and feeling like crud from crying so much. La Moyne came over and we went out for Thai then to Vino's to watch the game. Ended up back at my place to watch movies.
I'm going to start deleting negative people in my life. People I call friends that I know are not. it's about time I do it. I need to start introducing more positive people in my life.