Stargate SG-1 ; Vala Mal Doran ; once upon a time - a Fanmix
[She's known since she hit puberty that men would fall at her feet. A boy who lived a few houses down- she's forgotten his name, but remembered her face- would come over with a bunch of flowers, some with the roots attached, just to see her breasts. She played along, until she grew sick of flowers, and a man offered her jewelry instead.]
Every boy's the same
Since I been in the seventh grade
They been trying to get with me
Trying to (Ha, ha-ha, ha, ha-ha)
They always got a plan
To be my one and only man
Want to hold me with their hands
Beep - The Pussycat Dolls
[It was fun at first. Spinning around the galaxy, landing only when necessary. Forming relationships, enough to build trust but easy enough to slip away. She grew fantastic at weaving lies, until she couldn't tell the difference between a truth and a lie herself.]
I might have nowhere left to go
But I know that I cannot go home
These words are strapped inside my head
Tell me to run before I'm dead
Chase the rainbows in my mind
And I will try to stay alive
Runaway - Pink
[It's a rare occasion when she'll invite someone onboard with her. It fills the silence as she moves from planet to planet. She tries to avoid using stargates as possible- for what reason, she's not certain. But she soon grows tired of her companion, and tries to shake them off as soon as possible. She's not sure why she does it, because soon the silence gnaws on her until she's counting the hours until she reaches the next civilization.]
Because I am the underdog.
I am the last in line
Don't be the enemy
Don't stand in back of me.
Will you be my friend?
Now I understand that I more than like you
Underdog - Lisa Loeb
[Before she met Daniel Jackson and his fellow Earth people, she found herself searching for one person. She never learnt his name- he was in the business himself, and the both dodged answering questions that could link back to them- but the kept bumping into one another. They shared one night together. Vala never admitted to herself that she was searching companionship with him, and if they remained together, one of them would have ended stranded on some desert, deserted planet, but it would have been nice. In theory, anyway,]
This girl I know needs some shelter
She don't believe anyone can help her
She's doing so much harm, doing so much damage
But you don't want to get involved
You tell her she can manage
And you can't change the way she feels
But you could put your arms around her
Protection - Massive Attack
[When she's in for a bit of fun, she picks a planet at random, takes a man (or woman, but they're harder to bring along) back to his house, and when he's finally asleep, she takes everything. Including his shoes. The guilt she feels when she's back in her ship is easily washed away when she collects the money earned.]
I've been a bad, bad girl
I've been careless with my delicate man
And its a sad sad world
When a girl will break a boy
Just because she can
Criminal - Fiona Apple
[It all catches up to her, eventually. She never wakes at night, covered in a cold sweat and calling out 'Daddy!' or 'Mummy!' like she's seen in Earth movies. But sometimes, when she's staring into her mug of whatever drink she has at the time, she'll be drawn in, and when someone calls her name or taps her on the shoulder, she'll be given a fright. It's both relaxing and disconcerting to have lost the ability to watch her back.]
Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given
Feel - Robbie Williams
[Vala knows what is said. She can't even pass through some stargates without the wives keeping their husbands locked in the house for her stay. It's not as though she's slept with them all- hardly even one, and he wasn't even married then. Just wink an eye, unbutton the top button of her shirt and pat his arm and it's as though they've been caught naked with her legs in the air.]
If you look back in history
It's a common double standard of society
The guy gets all the glory the more he can score
While the girl can do the same and yet you call her a whore
Can't Hold Us Down - Christina Aguilera
[She's a proud person. Oh, she has her moments of insecurity, and she's not afraid to cry (though she would rather do it in the privacy of her own room). She won't back down unless her spirit is broken, and even then she'll cling to what remains of her dignity.]
It's overload, and I'm out of control (out of control)
So sick and tired of feeling so misused (feeling so misused)
Taking me down with all your mental abuse
I must say, gotta get you out of my head
Everybody's always trying to look me over (look me over)
I just wanna live simple and free
I just wanna get away
Make Over - Christina Aguilera
[She's flirted her way out of many a situation- flirting with both her captor and the possibility of injury or death. It's fun, though, and she often looks back with a grin on her face. What's life without a bit of danger?]
Cause I can't focus I can't stop,
You got me spinning round,
round, round, round (Like a record),
I can't focus, it's too hot (Inside),
You'll never get to heaven if you're scared of getting high
Red Blooded Woman - Kylie Minogue
[And if her flirting gets both her and the rest of SG-1, then what's the harm? Oh, she'll receive jibes later, but she knows they are thankful for it. Afterwards, she makes a mental note to give Sam Carter a few tips, but that woman never listens.]
If you got flaunt it, boy I know you want it
While I turn around you watch me check up on it
Ooh you watchin me shake it, I see it in ya face
Ya can't take it, it's blazin, you rock me it amaze me
You can look at it, as long as you don't grab it
Check Up On It - Beyonce Knowles
[Although it was all (innocent- really!) flirtations at the start, Vala never expected to fall in love with Daniel Jackson. Sure, she did want to have sex with him, but when it grew to laughing at his jokes, looking for him at lunch and just wanting to talk with him...]
I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I'd love you to love me.
I'll shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt.
I'll get home early from work if you say that you love me.
I Want You To Want Me - Chris Issak
[Sometimes she misses her mother. She never misses her father. She tells herself that. Just like her lies got mixed up in her truth, that she was never really that lonely, that she saw Daniel Jackson as someone to sleep with, not someone to have a future with... She could lie to everyone else, but never to herself.]
You're mothers' child
But night lays you down
Hair aflame, wild look in your eyes
Naked belly to the ground
A forest fire
Nibbles at your veins
Crawls up your arm
runs away with your mind
And burns dry thoughts like leaves
Amen
Amen - Jewel
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