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[findarato]

*finally stops putting it off and sits down to reply to Nellas' note*

Dear Nellas

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[lady_nellas]

*sinks down in her chair and reads it*

*struck with emotion, places her hand over her heart*

How I could have loved you, how much of myself I could have given to you, how much (too much) of my heart I have already given...

But ai, do not ask me to place hopes in wishing. I have dreamt too much and paid the price for it.

*resolves to put it behind her*

*cries*

[findarato]

*worries*

[lady_nellas]

*wishes he wouldn't*

[findarato]

*wishes he didn't know that he should worry*

*further wishes that all this wasn't his fault*

[lady_nellas]

*really does wish he can be happy with Amarië*

[findarato]

*believes he can be*

Nellas?

[lady_nellas]

*shakily* Finrod?

[findarato]

I'm sorry.

...

But please believe I wasn't using you.

[lady_nellas]

*softly* I know. I'm just not sure what I want to believe... of course I wish things were different, but they can't be.

[findarato]

Belief is such a hard thing.

If things were different...

But love has not a mind, only a soul...

[lady_nellas]

*faces you* I know some part of your soul has always been with Amarië. I know that's where you belong, no matter what might have been between us. *smiles sadly* But to think of "what ifs?"... no good can come of that now, Finrod.

[findarato]

*tenderly strokes a strand of hair back from her face* No, no good can come of that.

.........

I still wish I had a friend like you :(

[lady_nellas]

...

*isn't sure what to say* :(

*tentatively hugs him*

*whispers* Be good to her?

[findarato]

*hugs back*

I hope I can be ... I feel so very useless...

[lady_nellas]

*hugs tightly*

She doesn't think that, Finrod, not if she knows you as I do.

[findarato]

But I know it. I know I'm so very useless at making her happy ... at making anyone happy.