Im still alive..
Still alive yes..lot of shit went down since the last update..so Ill keep it brief with this..
No longer am I in school..I am on probationary explusion..for reasons most already know..Ill be back next year..
Other then that..work and shows..and editing..lots of video editing..I took on my own project and Pat Swartz project..and now that I am done with that..I am working part time whenever I can to help Otain spike his newest video up..so yeah thats been a bit crazy..ive probably put 14 hours of total editing in within 3-4 days..on these three projects..so yeah kinda crazy like I said..
Since I have been home I have been thinking..mostly about women..no one specific..just in general..I have come to the conclusion that I get attached to people way to easy..there could be a number of reasons for that..having pretty much no social life in middle school..yeah deprived me..of relationships..and when I get them..I just want them to last..You can try your hardest to make something work but it always comes back to what the other person is thinking..if they arn't for it..it isn't happening..I think I am going to come about things differently..maybe not even find a relationship but just someone..to be close with..I have many close friends..but not so close as I am talking about...I wouldn't complain if I could find a relationship worth getting into..no one would..but it usually doesn't happen like that..I might take a spin on things..and just try to meet around..see what I can find..I'm not ready for another commited relationship..they suck anyway..and almost never turn out the way you want..and thats logic..girls I meet..they are younger then me..they want differnt things..I need to meet someone uhh round my age..someone...maybe on the same level as me..on things..I won't go into specifics on things..but I know..thats all that needs to be said..I miss having a relationship..but then again..I don't have what I like to call..relationship stress..people know what I talk about when I say this..that are in realtionships..those times when you arn't to certain whats going to happen..but then again..everything seems just peachy..and you are asking yourself why do I have this huntch this stupid huntch that something is up here..yeah I hate that shit..and its a waste of time to stress about..but then again..you cant help but stress because this is your relationship that might be a stake..
Realtionships..they are good and bad..if you are to scale it..I don't know what would come out..you lose something no matter..time with friends maybe..but then again what the hell do you care..you are a very happy person in a realationship..and at the time you feel its worth it..could be..then again it couldn't you never can fucking tell..
I can tell you this..I am going to switch it up a bit..and hope for the better :-x
Shows have been fun...tonights owned..Tradition played crazy set..along with Disregard, Cas one, Cross Examination, and fucking Striaght and Alert..ahh good times..its going to kick ass when Tradition moves down here..for sure..
I still think about it..
us..yeah its crazy..
Later
No longer am I in school..I am on probationary explusion..for reasons most already know..Ill be back next year..
Other then that..work and shows..and editing..lots of video editing..I took on my own project and Pat Swartz project..and now that I am done with that..I am working part time whenever I can to help Otain spike his newest video up..so yeah thats been a bit crazy..ive probably put 14 hours of total editing in within 3-4 days..on these three projects..so yeah kinda crazy like I said..
Since I have been home I have been thinking..mostly about women..no one specific..just in general..I have come to the conclusion that I get attached to people way to easy..there could be a number of reasons for that..having pretty much no social life in middle school..yeah deprived me..of relationships..and when I get them..I just want them to last..You can try your hardest to make something work but it always comes back to what the other person is thinking..if they arn't for it..it isn't happening..I think I am going to come about things differently..maybe not even find a relationship but just someone..to be close with..I have many close friends..but not so close as I am talking about...I wouldn't complain if I could find a relationship worth getting into..no one would..but it usually doesn't happen like that..I might take a spin on things..and just try to meet around..see what I can find..I'm not ready for another commited relationship..they suck anyway..and almost never turn out the way you want..and thats logic..girls I meet..they are younger then me..they want differnt things..I need to meet someone uhh round my age..someone...maybe on the same level as me..on things..I won't go into specifics on things..but I know..thats all that needs to be said..I miss having a relationship..but then again..I don't have what I like to call..relationship stress..people know what I talk about when I say this..that are in realtionships..those times when you arn't to certain whats going to happen..but then again..everything seems just peachy..and you are asking yourself why do I have this huntch this stupid huntch that something is up here..yeah I hate that shit..and its a waste of time to stress about..but then again..you cant help but stress because this is your relationship that might be a stake..
Realtionships..they are good and bad..if you are to scale it..I don't know what would come out..you lose something no matter..time with friends maybe..but then again what the hell do you care..you are a very happy person in a realationship..and at the time you feel its worth it..could be..then again it couldn't you never can fucking tell..
I can tell you this..I am going to switch it up a bit..and hope for the better :-x
Shows have been fun...tonights owned..Tradition played crazy set..along with Disregard, Cas one, Cross Examination, and fucking Striaght and Alert..ahh good times..its going to kick ass when Tradition moves down here..for sure..
I still think about it..
us..yeah its crazy..
Later